Last day Of exam!

Seriously, today is the last day of 1st year after wrapping with with contemporary exam. I was full with activities today which I don't expect myself to skip breakfast and lunch. My meal was only at 5pm today. omgness. Luckily no gastric. :P

Had dinner with Dr Yumi with coursemates at Penang Tims Square. It was just a simple dinner with awesome food and chat/gossips. Superbly nice ber-bonding time with lecturer and coursemates after weeks of exam(torture).

So yeah, as I was saying earlier. Rachel called at 8.45am which I suppose to wake up at 8am where I put my Itouch on snooze till I woke up cuz of the call. omgness... Get myself ready right away then, *poofff* out of hostel to practice room to practice. hmmm...

Exam was supposed to be at 10am which postponed till 11am which then postponed till 12pm. -.-. Ouh wait.... Supposedly On Monday(25-04-2011) morning at 10am. mana tau???

Luckily, I'm done with everything. Right after Contempt exam, I rush for my cello class, errr.. my last cello class before 4 months break. Pastu, Rush back to usm to attend recital till 4pm. omgness.. Super pack, kan? :P

Ahhhh... Dinner and movie with him wrapped up the night. Am superbly happy to have movie with him. Cuz It was like one month ago since we last stepped into the cinema! *wink*

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Mua spent rm100 for cleanser! I don't expect it to be rm100 tho! I thought its gonna cost me for rm60-rm70. mana tau, they don't sell 50ml. Ewwww... So, I got this lah....

ps : Thanks to him who carried my piano all the way to winnie's place. *muacks*

ps : piano class at 9am tmrw! Omg! @@

SCREAM!

Mood : Love Story by Taylor Swift!

Scream till my lungs fall out. Wait, Will they come out from my mouth? *think*

Done with 1st year and now what?

To-Do List for this 4 months :

#1 : get all of my piano pieces done this 4 months, My dear Beethoven, choppin, schumman and more, love me please.

#2 : Get "The Kite Runner" book from bookstore and read it! ouh yea!

#3 : Get all the fats off!! *Gym ball and swimming everyday at Perak Golf House*

#4 : Bring Grandma around Ipoh. *to pantai and lumut hopefully*

#5 : Learn Cello from uncle!

#6 : Learn piano from Dr Alyssa! *The most exciting part, yo*

There are still a long list to do in my mind tho. Ouh yea! Mumsie just got herself Iphone two weeks ago! Omg!!!!!! She didn't even tell me!!! She promised to get me one half a year ago, end up she get it for herself! ewww... jealous! Surprisingly she knows how to use "facetime" application which I thought she don't know how to use it! haha.. alright, my mum is learning!

One funny thing about mummy is she's actually not really good at internet and computer stuff. She once actually tried to pinch the screen on my lappie. She thought my lappie screen is like Ipad which she is sooooooo used to pinch it on her Ipad to ENLARGE pictures!! How funny, right?! I've always got reasons to tease her when it comes to internet and tech stuff!! haha..... But, when it comes to brands like La SenZa, Che Che and superbly high end make up brands, She's the QUEEN. No one would dare to argue with her!

Imma get her Bumper to protect her Iphone. I save money, yo! I eat bread everyday, FYI.

Anyway, It's gonna be a really exciting 4 months ahead. I can't wait to get it started and I hope its gonna be a longggg 4 months, please! I don't dare to face my 2nd year!

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Ahhhh.... He promised me so many things. Thanks. I can't get anyone better than you. I've told myself many times, Never let you go. Thanks for your patience and your heart that always accommodates me no matter how occupied you are.

BIGGG sorry for those who sees me when I stress. I memang show it out on my face when I'm stress. Ahhh.. Sorry. :(. This is just me. I pushed myself to hard this time. Too much pressure from all over. It tensed me up last two weeks. I hardly sleep before 12am last two weeks. It's soooo not me! I slept at 3am. Which I think He influence me lah! CUZ he NEVER sleep! :P

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Now, I just can't wait to go back Kuantan. *instead of kemaman*. A bunch of Best friends are there this coming 4 months break. I seriously hope to see them!! ALL OF THEM! ahhh...

Till then. Imma stop here.

ps : Start packing lah. The most exciting part every sem! muahaha!!

4 months

End of April already. A quarter of 2011 has gone just like that. And my first year in usm is coming to an end.

Reflecting back how I was when I first stepped in USM. How much I hated the hostel that I got. It was so dirty and small and yea, the revolving fan which is SUPER DUPER annoying! And you know what? I don't own a hair dryer for the first few weeks, so I kinda like sit under the REVOLVING FAN and wait for my turn to blow my hair! ><

I was devastated the first two days cuz I don't have any friends here. Angie twisted her ankle and left me alone there.

I remember how I mix with a group of friends here. My life turned over to a real exciting one. For the first time, I talked with a bunch of friends who are nice be get along with in USM. They're kinda like a saviour that time. Cuz I was being so lonely that first two days.

Ouh yea, forgot to mention my ex-roomate who never talk. haha... Apparently, she only talks to indians and malays. As I wasn't in that group of race, so, she never turn to me and talk. That's why I say I was devastated for the first two days.

I remember how I forced myself to sleep and thank god I was too tired enough to sleep and yea, we have to wake up very early in the morning just to go for prayer. hmm.. A nice experience tho!

It was July when I entered USM. I was in usm for two whole months(which i think it feels like 20 years) before I went back home. And I was so excited on the bus practically smilling for the whole 12 hours in the bus telling myself that I AM GOING HOME, finally. That was for two weeks break during raya period. Super happy that time!!! How I miss my GETHA back at home!

Btw, That was the time that I swear to myself the I never will take bus back home to Kemaman. Cuz it was freakin' cold inside. It feels like i'm in a movable fridge with idk how many wheels! haha..... *CRAZY*

One week that passed just like that was so much to be kept in mind. A bunch of new friends that i know here are going to be my friends for life. I love knowing new friends.

Thanks for all the memories that we had.

ps : Last paper tomorrow. * i can't wait to shout*

Happy two months!

Omgness! Two months already since the day I say, yes? mwuahhh!!!

I miss you like sooooo much!!! when was the last time we went into the cinema together? When was the last time you cuddle me? When was the last time you hug me tightly? When was the last time you stare into my eyes? *imma faint already*

It's exam period, me was so stress last week till I kinda neglected him. So sorry. He bought me chocos to release my stress which I finished it up in just 5 mins! omg!! A pack of m&m! Crazy, right? All because of TITAS and WORLD MUSIC that made my brain gone hare wire! omg!

Last Friday, It was a lovely dinner though it was short. I felt like I fall in love with you like again. So sorry. Cuz of the stress-ness till I put u at the back of my mind.

Yeah, We've gone through difficult stages and I believe we can do it for the next four months *super anxious*.

He asked me, what made you into me. I couldn't answer that cuz its just feelings that I felt towards you, dear. Inner feelings that I cannot express it out by words. :)

I miss you patting my head and say, I miss you.

I miss you staring in my eyes and say, I love you.

I miss you holding my hands and say, come let's cross.

I miss you cuddling me and say, listen to my heart beat.

Thanks for this two months. I may be the suckiest hot tempered girl in the whole wide world, but you are the suckiest boyfie I love! Mwuahhh!!!!

Study week, I was so close with a few of your besties till I felt so close with you, dear. It was the happiest moment in this relationship. Imma know all your bestie, gimme time! muahaha..... They were the ones whom I felt so close with and brought back my secondary school mates memories. <3

Thanks for bringing me up and thanks for making me a real independent girl. Thanks.

Ps : youarejustthebesttillIdon'twannaloseyou. alright?

Pss : wearegonnabejustfine.

psss : Iloveyou.

Mummy's day.

Happy birthday to the Queen of my family! Mummy!! She's always the #1 in my heart. Wait, there's still grandma, daddy, bro and sis! They're all #1 in my heart.

The one that I've always think of everytime I miss home is, Mummy.

The one that cried together with me when She sees me crying, Mummy.

The one that talked to me through the phone patiently, Mummy.

The one that I've always complaint stuff to, Mummy.

The one that always listens to what I say patiently, Mummy.

The one that we always have opposite thoughts which results in argument, Mummy.

The one that I LOVE eternally, MUMMY.

I wasn't the apple of my mummy's eye among three of us. Cuz I've always been the naughtiest among us. I've got bad grades and bad attitude. She never gave up on teaching me ballet and piano. She never gave up on me whenever I say I don't wanna do this I don't wanna do that, I hate doing this and that. She's always there for me whenever I needed her.

For the past 20 years, she's been there for me ever since I was born. yeah, She's the greatest for me.

Whenever she fails to comfort me, she'd turn to dad, which is my HERO. He is seriously good at comforting me where I'd cry one whole night thinking of the words he said. Well, That's just him, the DAD and the HERO of mine. :).

I am BLESSED, truely BLESSED to have both of them in my life. They coloured my life especially mummy's laughter where You'd just laugh together with her without knowing the reason of laughing! haha....

It's been a month since I last saw her and I admit I've been neglecting her because of hectic works. Sigh... I know its my fault. It's been weeks since I last talked long enough like we use to through the phone.

She used to call me twice a day when I was in Kuantan staying alone. She'd make sure I've got enough food and water. That's so mummy, right? haha... I love her.

We never say "I LOVE YOU" out to each other in our family, but we knew that we love each other so much till we just couldn't express it out through words.

I once sent "muacks" to daddy, and he told mummy, "Why ur daughter say "muacks"? He thought "muacks" = muak. omg..... *thunder*

Anyway, I cannot write long here. I ought to stop here though there's alot of lines going through my mind now.

PS : getting a present for mummy. Guess shirt, maybe? idea, please?

Catherine!!

These few days, I've been telling myself repeatedly with these lines.

"This is just the beginning of your new chapter, cat."

"HE puts you in this condition as HE has HIS own reason"

"Cat, you need to grow up, this is just the process".

"C'mon, have Faith in yourself!"

These are the lines that kept me going these days.

ps : tgh pms with schedule during study week!!!!

pss: for those who knows me, i gain weight like ALOT during study week! :(

Random

Taken from Crystle's camera. :).

Pictures taken in KLIA before Crys leaves for Japan for her programme last December! Happiest moment of my life. <3

当一个男的真正喜欢你的时候，他会主动发信息或者打电话给你，因为他很想你。

他会在乎你的一举一动，因为他怕他随时会失去你。

他看到你心情不好，就会来安慰你，尽管你对他发脾气，他还是忍了。

他会对你说些他的秘密，甚至有些连他最好的朋友也不知道的秘密。

爱的最高境界是经得起平淡的流年。

PS : Copy from fb punya! :)

When

When things get complicated I just need you to say, hey, things is going to be fine and let HIM lead us.

Pull me back, That's the thing that I want you to do ever since day 1. But, You stand on ur pride with your face held high saying, I bet we are going to be back together in less than a week without me doing anything. This is the worst sentence that A guy can come out with. Such a selfish guy, isn't?

Well, I've met this kinda guy like for the very first time and i'm encountering it. This is the worst guy ever i've meet where his words are worst than ever! Forgiving again and again and forgetting it again and again and promises again and again which eventually breaks my heart in the end. I'm just too tired for everything.

Can't you unburden me?? Can't you understand just a little tiny bit of me myself inside? I don't want to tell you directly that you're hurting me, but I want you to read this and think about it!

I was so excited for buying you the drink, but you turned everything down and not saying sorry until evening? Imagine that, you said sorry after 3 hours? The word sorry comes from KL wan issit? -.-

Being with you is rather crucial. This no doubt tested my patience level till the MAX! I mean it, MAX! I am not a girl for you to critic on, not for you to bully with, not for you to leave it aside when you're under pressure.

FULL STOP, i said. The next thing I wanna hear is, I LOVE YOU, please don't leave.

Instead, What I heard was, fine, if that's what you want, then ok. just make sure you made up your mind.

BREAK IT THEN. The next thing I wanna hear is, hey, don't be like that. we'll make it thru.

Instead, you said, I bet you will come back in less than a week without me doing anything.

The worst conversation I had and I've been like this for the past few weeks. I just don't show it out to my friends, but its been buried deep under so that I could present a happy face each time I socialize with other people. I buried deep under so that they won't ask.

You can never be the romantic guy that I've always wanted in my very own fairytale world, but you are the guy I love deep from inside my heart. You are the guy whom I just want to share all my problems with. You are the guy whom I want to lean on with till grey hair grows.

And yes, you may be the suckiest guy in his words, but you are the best guy in writing to his girl.

I don't do promises now. Cuz u've been ditching me ever since you know me and you've been breaking promises ever since the twenty fifth day of February.

Everything about us is about HIM. can you put that aside and just think only two of us?Think about your own problems, your own character, your own personality that can be changed for our future, will you? sigh~

You're the suckiest guy I've ever met but you're the guy I love and you're going to regret this if you continue like this!

I'm telling you

That it was the very first women's conference held in EPCC penang. Superbly nice due to the speaker. She'd been doing this for the past 10 years. Imagine how thick is her book if she's gonna write a book based on her experience.

The way she laugh would just crack everyone in the hall into laughter. I just love the way she talk. Thank God HE lead me to this conference and this conference obviously impacted me somehow.

This morning, The women's conference kicked off by shaking hands with people around you and greet them by saying, " you are beautiful". Isn't the nicest thing someone can say it to you like everyday? Tho I expect my own boyfie to say to me everyday. -.-

Know quite a number of new friends which I know its coming to the end of the sem and its kinda late already. But, yeah, who knows what's gonna happen next semester?

Learnt :

1.Build a bridge and cross OVER!

2. How you build your relationship with HIM reflects on how you build relationships with you own friends.

3. Be brave.

4. You are beautiful no matter how old you are.

5. Break the walls among everyone. ( This could make a HUGE difference)

Wai Quan & mua.

Carmen & Melanie .

Fong wan, Tien hui, Me and Winnie. :)

Winnie, Carmen, Tien hui, Joanna and Melanie.

ps : Still got quite a number of photos yet to be uploaded. :)

pss : can anyone teach me how to upload a gif. file?? please?