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hell yea exam is just around the corner, yet i am still writing this post.

well, as u all know, i just got out of a real bad relationship and i'm trying to cope with my single life right now. haha...

being single is much better rather than being in a relationship. hmm..... well, one of the advantage is you will never get "bonded" to something. But, what goes up surely will come down, it does have its own disadvantage too, like being alone! haha.. but then friends are there just for you!!!

I hung out alot with my friends/classmates recently! well, its fun being with them!! crapping and fooling around! haha... it is truely fun! laugh from inside my heart. haha..

mei and teng, seriously thanks to you cuz i seriously can't cope with my situation alone. you guys were there whenever i got difficulties! yea.. seriously thanks! I do love my friends!!

My life suck without my friends!! i'm nothing without my friends!! Friends are important!! yeah!! seriously important!! haha... tat it!! OFF TO MATH NOW!!



PS: B is havin' cold n sore throat since sunday.
PSS: but, B is playing rugby today!!
PSSS: mua miss B alot!!!!!!!!!
PSSSSS: Good luck in today's game B!!!!!

blogging!

pheww!!! i just finish my PA presentation work on power point. Alot of things to type! hmm...

lol.. i planned to study variation theory after typing PA stuff, then, a friend of mine borrow me his maxis broadband, i was like, yay!! can online!! haha.. so he drop off his maxis USB broadband here for me. lol... well, actually i ought to do some stuff for my PA through the internet, find some stuff for that presentation. hmm...

hmm... nothing much happened lately.... went for 4 hours math marathon this morning at Ms Irene's, went back home and had a good sleep after 4 hours of crakcing my head on those questions. whoa....

Teng, sui Teng, was sick, she didn't attend this morning's class.. hmm... she's sick for like 2 months? hmm.. after recovering from last months' high fever, running nose and sore throat, she's sick again now.. sigh...

I do miss her very much... haha... miss crapping with her lar wei.... talking with her is fun cuz there'll be no stress thinking of what to say! just spit everything out of my mind whenever i was with her. haha....

well, am here praying for her fast recovery! jia you teng!!! love you!! XOXO!!!

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hmm... i actually can survive without him!! lol.. cheers for myself!!

well, if isn't my frens beside me, i don't think i could survive! haha..

well, am actually enjoying today's life, being alone. i felt more comfortable being alone. cuz ain't gotto inform somebody what i'm doing and everything. There's no one who can control my life. hmm.... felt like i'm kinda free now.

am acutally just got out of a real bad relationship badly recently. some of my frens were looking at me weirdly whenever i walked passed by them. hmm...

I think tat was the worse relationship that i've ever had. i felt so stress being with tat somebody. couldn't control my own emotions properly when i was with him. sigh... felt seriously unhappy whenever i hang out with him.

He cared too much till i don't have space of my own to breath, to do my own things! hmm... he's too ego that i really hate his attitude as well as his own character.

1 yr, i've been with him.. is a real long time for both of us. i stand his attitude n character so much.

between this 12 months, i know inside my heart that i seriously cannot accept him in my life. cuz his attitude really makes me sick.

so, i've decided to end everything up before everything gets worse!

hmm... the best decision that i've made so far.

Felt tat i'm much more happier than i used to last time.
Felt like i actually got time to talk with frens.
felt like i actually got freedom!! yeah...

though i miss him, but everything that started ought to end it when two weren't meant to be together.

now, i'm focusing 100% on my studies.

Most of my frens were there supporting me. they always say, never give up. yeah, never give up till the end!!

I seriously wanna give a big hug to yi po, who actually lead me to a good path. she say, if u really wanna do it, just follow ur dream! don't give up. so yea, i'm gonna strive for the best. Yet, being the best of the best!!

PS : he won 1 game in rugby this morning. xoxo..

22nd sept 2009

It was Tuesday that day and i was in kl for three days shopping spree.. lol...

Well, i went out with him tat day. i was late for our date tat day actually. At first he waited me at my hotel lobby, then, he went to mph. hmm.. *sorry i was late*!! We met up in MPH.

Cat : hey, we finally meet up!
Him : um.. hey, lets go get the tickets for the movie now.
Cat : ouhh... ok.

gosh.. he was a real shy boy. haha... he don't dare to look at me actually. lol...

well, we went up to GSC straight. when we reach the cinema, everybody was lining up to get tickets. well, we just line up at the back of the line then. lined up for around 15mins, we got out tickets at last. hmm... the ugly truth we watched. it was a real funny movie tho!! haha...

hmm... after the movies we hit to the red box at the gardens! haha.. he brought me there! It was my first time entering any "BOX BOX" thingy. lol.... It was high tea promo that time, so we grab everything we can into our room. haha...

After eating, we sung for like.. um.. 2 hours? lol... love the moments when we were singing!! haha... darn funny!! haha.... i was forcing him to sing with me that time. lol... darn hyper me!! was fooling around with him that time. haha..

hmm... that's practically one whole day with him.

Pictures are coming up soon!!

PS : miss him!!

new dawn, new day, new life.

its been months since i last blog. many things happened around me which i don't really know how to express them... writting this blog with lotsa "sigh" inside my head right now. i'm really confuse. i don't know what should i do.

My future suppose to be me who decide what to do and what should do, but some things that i just can't get rid off. I can't decide what should i do.

STPM is real hard for me. i totally give up when i received my Trial result last week. But after getting advices from Pn Phang and my friends around me, i know, i cannot give up right now. its not the time for me to give up yet! strive for the best until the end!!

They told me, blogging can express feelings out. yeah, i do agree a part of it. but somehow and sometimes, i felt like there's alot of things for me to say, but i just can't let it out. i can't express it. i seriously can't.

well, seriously, alot of things happened around me for the past few months.

I gave up my one yr n a month's relationship with him, cuz i really can't stand the pressure from him and from my studies! sigh..

i studied real hard for my trials, but in the end, my result "shucks"!! this is the main reason i gave up when i receive my result. I cannot stand myself getting such result after studying for months!!

i really can't believe that i get such result after lotsa of effort i put on for that subject! felt like stabbing myself with a knife!! urgh!!

for now, i'm just gonna be alone. i just wanna be alone! settle my mind down, focus on studies and thoughtfully think about my own future.

I chat with one of my old classmate last night through msn. she talked about her life in taylors while she was doing A lvls. sigh... i so wish that i could be in college, instead of doing stpm in form6! cuz A lvls ain't as hard as form6!!

well, saying all these are just to express my inner heart. but, thinking back of all those things won't make things better. so, now, i'll just have to look forward and do my best in everything!!

strive for the best!!

you...

you were my best friend since i knew you.
you were there when i was sad.

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We used to have lotsa talkings whenever we were together.
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But,
Everything seems to changed 360 degrees.
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I wouldn't dare go near you.
I wouldn't dare talk with you anymore.
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Cuz of the weird feelings inside my heart.
Cuz what happened last year.
Cuz don't know what makes us apart.
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seriously,
I can't forget of what had happened last year.
I felt so innocent.
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Now,
I felt like running away from you whenever i see you.
I felt like hiding myself from seeing you.
I don't know what should i do.
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Today,
We are far apart each other,
We can't be as close as we used to last time.
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The feelings are far way too weird for me!!

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Anyway,
I know that i can't turn back time to get back there.
I know that things won't be the same again even if i tried my best to fix them back.
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So,
We should live our life to the fullest!
Appreciate what we have now!
Never look back of our past!
But!!
Learn from our mistakes we've done before.

P.S : I do miss the time....

P..S.S : Waiting for bro to come back on thursday!!

lately.

Lately, I've been studying so hard for chemistry, especially organic chemistry. But those mechanism just don't seems like going into my "memory stick". I ought to revise again and again and again for the same mechanism!!
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Alkenes, Benzenes, Methylbenzenes, Haloalkanes and Hydroxy compounds are seriously driving me crazy!!!

sigh.....

How am i gonna strive for at least 3.5cgpa??

Biology is at least better than chemistry. They at least "willing" to enter my "memory stick"!! But, population genetics and all those stuff about genes and DNA are making my head right round!! I had to do lotsa exercise on that chaps!!

I've been doing Math exercises too lately... differentiation and integration!! they're fun when i get those answers correct, but they're torturing me when i couldn't get the answer!! I'll just scribble the whole foolscape paper with numbers & symbols!! Oh GOD!! help me!!!

Trials is on the 4th of Sept!! i'm so gonna fight with it!!!