focusing

Lame title, huh? I'm out of idea of what title I should put. Just a little anecdote to share with you guys out there. :)

I'm currently playing bass guitar for my class's ensemble. Fingers hurt till max for my very first time plucking the strings on the bass. gosh... It hurts when I play piano for the first few days. But it gets better after some time. Now, My first two fingers are officially "harden"?? LOL... idk that's the appropriate word to describe it! haha... well, i'm getting use to playing bass right now. :)

Besides taking up bass, I'm gonna start learning CELLO soon!! yeah, you heard me saying CELLO! why cello?! first and the most important factor of learning a cello is because of the impact of watching "The Soloist". This movie makes me cry at the very end and it inspires me to get myself to learn cello!! I'm getting a cello at LAST!!! yay~~

Mua is coping with studies nowadays. I'm setting a goal for myself. lol... my goal = finish up all those books that i've photocopied!! omg!!! its like A THOUSAND pages long!! hopefully I can finish them up before final starts!! omg!!

Thinking back of biology and math. I miss doing them so much. I miss memorizing cells, describing the process of it and most of all do all difficult math questions. yeah, I know I may sound stupid cuz most of science students hate doing those stuff, but those WERE what I did for the past 7 years.

For now and the next 2 years, I'll be reading scores scores and more scores like EVERYDAY!! haha.. sight-reading sure improve till max la!! no more calculators, cuz there are NO calculations!! no more graph papers, cuz there are NO graphs for me to draw! no more tiny little cells for me to examine, no more microscope, no more brain-wrecking questions like those crazy MATH-T!!

I've told myself, no regrets after choosing this path. I'll do this properly and hopefully I can excel in what I've chosen. *pray pray pray*.

Thanks for those who were there beside me whenever I needed them. I really thank them for lending their hands, shoulders and their ears. You know who you are.

okay, I'm addicted to kit-kat nowadays!! I had a bar of kit-kat which cost me rm3 and kit-kat nuggets just now! omg!! those calories!! *pening straightaway*

Will be here to update my story next time. till then~

A rotten apple inside.

Class started and assignments are piling up ever since the first day I got back. pheww... luckily I got to Finnish up the drama & theater report in time! Thank God!

Mr Johan, my music history teacher won't be giving lectures anymore. Instead, Dr Razak will be handling over his class. I love Mr Johan's class, cuz i'd learn alot of things from him other than learning history of music. And he's so C-U-T-E when he's lecturing in front of the class!!! *Faints*

Life had been kinda lazy for me ever since I got back here. I admit that I don't really practice piano now due to some personal reasons. sighh...

Nowadays, I'm scare to talk to anyone. I don't know why. I'm scare to approach to talk to my friends even though they're my classmates. I miss the laugh, the excitment, the joy and most of all, the sharings.

Books and I-touch becam my new best friend recently. I try my very best to show the best of myself infront of everybody where I smile and I laugh with them. But, in the inside, I'm truely sad/lonely/SAD. Yeah, I hate to admit that I'm all alone in uni. :(..

More or less, this feeling affected me myself. I've never been so ALONE in my whole entire life. In the past, where ever or whenever I go, Teng teng would be by my side. I felt like i'm a rotten apple. idk why.

I cried so badly for that particular incident where I am all alone. I cried cuz i'm so damn scare to be alone. I skipped lunch everyday cuz i don't know whom i can eat with!! My eyes hurt last few days as I've never been so down until I met this incident.


For you, if u're reading this. please do tell me why and what happened? Its been a month plus since I last talk with u. I tried to approach u, but it seems that u tried to avoid every step I take. And now, I'm scare to talk to u cuz I felt like i'm a pest to u. I am Scare of u.

I have to admit that I can't survive without friends.

Back for good! :)

I'm back after my last post in this blog of mine. well, I wasn't in the mood to blog recently cuz of some stuff going on. Exams and assignments are the main obstruction! *blame them*

I'm back in penang again after 2 weeks raya break. I spent lovely time with my family in penang, KL, Ipoh and most of all KEMAMAN! LOL... bro is back from Japan for a month, I only got to spend 2 weeks with him. Well, I guess i've gotto wait next year again! :)

I'm currently sleeping a night at my aunt's house in penang. I just got down from plane and I'm so so so tired but i don't feel like sleeping yet. *weird huh*??

I miss mummy and daddy right after i wave goodbye at them today at kuantan airport. I nearly cry when I saw mummy and daddy waiving at me. I quickly walked myself to the waiting area so that they won't see me in tears.

It was my first experience sitting plane alone from Kuantan-KL-Penang. Cool experience btw!! Tho its tiring finding my gate in KLIA, but it was fun exploring those gates by myself! haha....

Settled down in penang now. Gonna start class this coming Monday. Excited?! never!! cuz every class here seems to be like "exam class". I'd try to enjoy those classes tho! :)

Till then. :)