new dawn, new day, new life.

its been months since i last blog. many things happened around me which i don't really know how to express them... writting this blog with lotsa "sigh" inside my head right now. i'm really confuse. i don't know what should i do.

My future suppose to be me who decide what to do and what should do, but some things that i just can't get rid off. I can't decide what should i do.

STPM is real hard for me. i totally give up when i received my Trial result last week. But after getting advices from Pn Phang and my friends around me, i know, i cannot give up right now. its not the time for me to give up yet! strive for the best until the end!!

They told me, blogging can express feelings out. yeah, i do agree a part of it. but somehow and sometimes, i felt like there's alot of things for me to say, but i just can't let it out. i can't express it. i seriously can't.

well, seriously, alot of things happened around me for the past few months.

I gave up my one yr n a month's relationship with him, cuz i really can't stand the pressure from him and from my studies! sigh..

i studied real hard for my trials, but in the end, my result "shucks"!! this is the main reason i gave up when i receive my result. I cannot stand myself getting such result after studying for months!!

i really can't believe that i get such result after lotsa of effort i put on for that subject! felt like stabbing myself with a knife!! urgh!!

for now, i'm just gonna be alone. i just wanna be alone! settle my mind down, focus on studies and thoughtfully think about my own future.

I chat with one of my old classmate last night through msn. she talked about her life in taylors while she was doing A lvls. sigh... i so wish that i could be in college, instead of doing stpm in form6! cuz A lvls ain't as hard as form6!!

well, saying all these are just to express my inner heart. but, thinking back of all those things won't make things better. so, now, i'll just have to look forward and do my best in everything!!

strive for the best!!