People

So, I had a chance to eat with my cousin sister few days ago. We were chatting about our lives that we are going through after SPM.

I only knew her since 15 years old. We were far away relatives. We were brought together one day during CNY "N" years ago. Ever since that day, we became besties. :)

We strive together for SPM. I remember the days where I study at her cozy big mansion in KL. Ahhh.... Superb nice!

I only get to meet her once a year which is only on CNY. But, I didn't get a chance to see her early this year, cuz I weren't back in Pantai that CNY.

Her boyfie, yeah! Finally, she got herself a boyfie! haha.... Back to topic, her boyfie, a penangite, she came to visit him and I insisted of seeing her afer knowing from my grandma that she's here in penang that few days.

She, of course followed her dream to study medicine. Currently in 4th year. After a year and a half of not seeing her, she'd grown so much, and am so proud of listening to her stories. Listening to her life in medicine line touched my heart once again. Ahhh.... How much I wish I could be just in her shoe!!

One thing I love the most about talking with her is, she's superb positive. She said, "Actually, medicine is not as difficult as you think, all you need to do is copy and paste". unlike engineering, you need to study and apply. ><

True tho! She said medicine is all about spending time with books! haahhaa...

Yeah, I miss chatting with her. Though its only a 2 hours chat at pelita, but the chat that i had between her and me, touched my heart again about my future. yeap.

"Be yourself. The world would be boring if everyone's the same." This is what I heard this morning once I start my car engine! Ahh... I love this sentence. I'm finding myself back. I am a loud and crazy girl where everyone knows that my personality is like this.

It could be a very tough week if we see it negatively, but it could be the most memorable week that one could have if one can just see it outside the box.

Last week of the semester. How fast is it to pass it just like that. Throughout the 3 months that I had, The proudest thing I've ever done to myself is, Accept christ into my life. The moment that changes my life forever.

Lord, I want the opportunity to help everyday. That's it.

My long lost brother

He was born a month later than me.

He share the same age as me.

He has small eyes while me, I don't la.

He lost his sister a year ago. She is my half sister. :'(

I've never tell the world about this before. But, i'm gonna tell the world today that I've found my long lost brother 2 years ago.

To cut this long story, I'm glad that he's still out there.

There he is.

His small eyes always make me smile.

I still remember the day where He was waiting for the news about his sister. I called him so many times, but he didn't answer his phone and at the end of the day, he called me and told me the bad news. Yeap. I sounded much "sadder" than him that day through the phone call.

I'm glad that he's still out there.

May god bless him in everything in his life. :')

Life is Fragile

Whole kemaman mourns for the lost of a great kid who is only 18 years old.

He met a car accident last Saturday and went into coma for a couple of days.

Each and everyone who visited him shouted at his name to ask him to wake up.

But, no response was given.

He gave up his life on Monday morning.

Those who received the news rushed themselves to Kuantan hospital.

His best friends wouldn't believe they had lost their friend until they saw him with their own eyes.

It was a really shocking news for everyone here in Kemaman. Even me myself would never believe a car accident in Kemaman can actually take someone's life.

I never know him.

But, through blogs, pictures and statuses that I read for the past few days, made me know him instantly.

He was a great kid. He could have a great future ahead.

He can somehow relate to me. His father was the one who sent me things every weekend to Kuantan when I was studying in Kuantan. But, throughout that 2 years, I never met his father.

His aunt, who was my teacher for 5 years straight. His aunt was the one who made me love Biology. His aunt was the one who drives my passion to study medicine.

Hearing someone who lost their family member can be devastating and sad on behalf. But, knowing someone who actually grew up with you and lost his/her life can really be a heart breaking one.

I pray that his family can stay strong to go through this hardship.

Family is always the first in my heart.

Friends around me are always the one that I trusted the most and the one whom I appreciate their presence in my life. The one who added colour in my life book.

Mate? I'm still searching. But, not at this very moment for me.

Lord, who made my life even much interesting since the start of the semester. I thank God for everything. I think Him for making me go through the hardship in my life. I think Him for always being in my heart, picking me up when I'm down, guiding me when I'm in darkness.

James 1:4

Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Relationships.

So, I was talking to a friend. She mentioned about 3 most important things in our life.

1st : To know God

2nd : To know our mission in our life

3rd : To find mate.

What my friend said is true where she kinda opens my mind being a university student. I felt so blessed that God send this friend to my life. Thank you Lord.

It changes my thoughts a little about relationships. Yeah. Having a boyfie/girl is not everything in our life. One can actually missed out alot I meant ALOT of interesting stuff as in meeting interesting people, Hearing great stories, Get inspired to do crazy stuff, and most of all mixing with all types of people!

I just love the conversation earlier. It really answered everything that I was miserable about! Omgness! Thank you! :D

So, I broke up with one of the greenest guy in Malaysia. I was really sad over it. Cuz I really put alot of "effort" in it. But, life moves on. I was stuck in it the past few days until I talked to this friend that I met!

So, the guy I broke up with taught me alot of things. Architecture, green stuff and lots more. I really learn from what I experience. Last tear I'd shed is, now. That's it.

Being a university student, is the time for us to explore what is in this society before we get to a job and tie a knot with our other half.

Imagine this, when you're married, you're gonna face your other half for the rest of your life. Plus, you'll be spending most of your time after work with your other half. Which literally, you don't have a time of your own to hang out with your own friends. :)

So yeah. I'd choose to know God more and know what is my mission in my life starting today. Yes, I'm gonna get over it and be a new one.

Who says one cannot live after break up? No one!!

Hallelujah! I felt blessed!

23.08.2011

It rained heavily here in kemaman last night. Today is a really fine day to get out of the house. Luckily it wasn't as hot as few days ago. Chin yang, Jo En and Andrew came all the way from Kuantan to Kemaman to pay a visit.

I haven't been seeing Chin Yang for almost a year! It was last year where I found him from Facebook after losing in touch with him after standard 4! omgness!! It's been like almost 10 years since the last time I saw him. We kept in touch because of Facebook! Thank you Mark!! And after keeping in touch for few months we met up and he told me that he's going to Germany for engineering course. sighh.. Everyone leaves Malaysia for further studies.

Jo en, she was my 2 months form 6 mate from kuantan. We used to walk to and back from school everyday until the day she decided to take up medicine course in Russia. I was so sad that I've only knew her for 2 months and she wants to leave kuantan already. sighh... So, I've only meet her once a year. She's a lovely girl.

As for Andrew, he is Chin Yang's bestie who study Electronic engineering in Manchester. He's a bully like chin yang!! -.-

Hearing stories from all over the world through them itches my heart where I can only afford to stay in Malaysia for a degree. I'd love to travel the world and broaden my knowledge. Which one day I believe, I will have the chance to go Europe, middle east, africa and everywhere! :D

So, chin yang got me gummy bears from Germany which apparently only produce in Germany, but you still can get it in UK. Superb chew-able gummy! I love it!! :D

As for this 4 months, I didn't waste it at all. I've gained confidence in teaching piano and ballet. I used to fear ballet and piano classes as children always bully me cuz I'm new. Mummy even let me handle a grade 5 ballet class as well as grade 2 piano class.

It is tougher to teach beginner than teaching a higher grade student. Cuz you need alot of introduction and you need to explain to them what is this and that. It is fun to teach beginners, cuz everything is so new to them. :)

Recently, I'm glued to disney channel and nickelodean, cuz I sticked with children like everyday! I've gotto watch cartoons in order to talk with them! haha... They love Ben 10 which my 6 year old kid can actually explain the cartoon role one by one to me!!!

And and and I love buying stickers and key chains to give them. They love stickers! IDK why!! haha... giving stickers to them encourages them to do well in their piano as well as work. :D

This 4 months, I Ber-bonding "gao gao" with both of my parents which I couldn't do it since I was 18. Thank you for the 4 months break. Though I didn't travel anywhere, but staying at home makes me more comfortable. Got to ber-bond with few of my friends here in kemaman as well as kuantan. But not all, cuz most of my frens r nt in malaysia. sighhh...

For piano, ahh.. of course! I practice everyday except friday! haha... Cello, dad says I improve which idk true or not. and I learn to play guitar (few chords only).

Oh yea, I had a great birthday with my family and friends. Dad plays his saxophone which he bought 2 months ago. He's so into saxophone today! I've got the video, but i don't think i'm gonna post it up! haha.. I'm keeping it in my computer! I got a secret recipe cake from mummy. Actually, I've got 2 cakes, one from my friend and one from mummy.

As for 21st birthday present, I got a new levi spec from daddy and mum says she wants to get me a key necklace, but I don't want it. :) Don't you think is old to wear a gold necklace?

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Ahh... what a long post! I'm gonna stop here or else i'm gonna continue again!! -.-

My 3 years old boyfie. :D

Angie with the butt, liyu and teng teng on the 12th of Aug. :) *billy went back early

My favourite ballet student. :)

I got this pretty dress from Dorothy Perkins last June in Gardens! Superbly love this dress. *with Grandma*

My cake

Humble family without brother who's in Japan.

PS : Congratulations to bro who just done his master's exam and interview in Japan.

NOOKA!

I've been eye-ing on NOOKA watch since I was 18, I just couldn't afford to buy such expensive watch. NOOKA wasn't in Malaysia until May 2010. I saw the first ever NOOKA retail store in Mid Valley. I practically ran towards the store like a mad lady. -.-

I've always wanted the sponge-bob NOOKA watch! arghh... guess how much is it? RM500. *BIGGGG SIGHHHH*

The design is from US. I like NOOKA watches as their designs are unique! Swatch pun tak secantik dia! :P

Link dia(scroll down to see all those watches) :

http://www.nooka.com/watch-c-1.html

Mooks got their own line of watches too! omgness!! GOT SPONGE-BOB wey! crazy!!! wait wait... NOOKA got Patrick too! hahaha.... Mooks' sponge-bob is also rm500. :(

So when I'm getting it? *sighh... not until I work and earn money myself. :)

FYI, I collect watches. :)

:D

So, I was so sick last week till yesterday. Yeap, I've been sick for a week and three days! omgness... I look after dad's kindergarten and mum's piano as well as ballet classes. I didn't get much rest as those classes were quite intense. Everything gets better when parents got back from Hokkaido last two days. Mum took care of me, wake me up every hour to let me drink some warm milo. How great is that to be a mother, eh? She's the greatest of all. :)

Again, Japan smell is all over my house now. Full of Japan stuff again. :D. Me love the snacks, chocolates and each and every stuff bought from Japan. Another new line of collection! Wee~

Mum got me a Burberry bag!! My very first Burberry bag! heeee.... *I still love my coach! I wanted a small wallet from coach at first, but a small wallet or wristlet from coach cost as much as a bag from Burberry, so mum decided to get me the Burberry bag instead of the wallet. So yeah, I've gotto stick to my current wallet untill it spoils. :)

I've yet to stepped into a cinema since transformer is out! omgness!! Yet got the time to get my butt into a cinema! :s

Lavender! Ahhh.....

It's blue label, only in Japan. :)

sis at the back busy opening the music box.

Next up, I've gotto get myself healthy enough to go for jogging everyday! I'm gaining weight each day at home! :)

Memories that shouldn't be deleted. :)

Got my hard disk and went through all the old pictures that makes me smile. Each and everyone of them are important in my life. Those are the ones who come into my life. Those are the ones who coloured my wall. Those are the ones who made me through the years. I cherish each and everyone of them. These are the pictures I'd keep forever and ever. Enjoy..

Those were the days. :)

My bestie and still is! :D

Still with bracess yo! -.-

Mine. <3

This pic is super long time ago. The future doctor, lawyer and my fern! -.-

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The first ever performance done together. :)

How happy were we? VERY. :D

The make up that made everyone mad. -.-

These were the memories that made me smile. Thinking of everyone scolding the make-up artist! omgness! hahahaha......

The first trip running away from orientation! :D

Everyone got into rapid penang and got ourselves to queensbay then KIM GARY.

The first pose with umbrella and the USM logo. -.-

How crazy is this, eh? We were laughing madly after taking this picture. Everyone who passed by stared at us for a minute!

This is what we do in practice room. always.... :)

I just realized that, I've only taken a few pictures. I should have taken more! Yeap... now, with my baby 600D, I'm taking everything i'm seeing!

You know, you just can't remember memories by not taking them down like jotting a particular event on your notebook. Sometimes, you just need to take out your pen and jot down or take out your camera and snap the moment down. Yeap, I tell you, you'd never regret taking it down. You see, technology nowadays allow us to have memory cards instead of "negatives"/ "films" where you actually need to walk into a photo shop to get your pictures done. tu lahhh... dengar kata ni.... " A picture tells a thousand words"! Hmph!!

*Don't ask me again why I wanna carry the big red bag around again!!!

1st of July

First of July and I decided to write in this blog again. I have had deep thoughts about life and future this couple of weeks. Things and everyday life struck my mind about human relationships and self emotion. Things get more complicated when you get out of the society.

I don't trust in any romance relationships anymore. I am putting myself to be single yet available for as long as I can. I enjoy being like this. Lonely, nope. Cuz I got a bunch of friends out there waiting for me to hang out with. I was cheated again and again with the words of guys. I was fooled by sweet talks guys whom always had.

I am disappointed with relationships. As much as I look fine in the outside, I struggle in the inside. The past relationship I had, had thought me never to trust guys anymore. I am afraid of them now. yes, I am.

Though once in a while we need love and care, we have high expectations for what we want, but still, I don't want those anymore.

YOU. I told myself to not to find you nor talk to you anymore. Cuz this is just what I am after break ups. But still, you come texting me once in a while. Just. leave. me. alone.

Now, I need a shoulder to rest my head on like seriously, cuz I'm tired of thinking relationships now. I am really tired and sick of it.

I wanted to go out of Malaysia to get myself a new me when I got back.

I wanted a new me.

I wanted one.

I admit that I've put the most of myself and committed in the last relationship. I was so disappointed with it. I didn't shed a tear until I finally had a time alone and cried. As much as I wanted to save the relationship, it just dosen't seem to work.

Lord, take away the anger. Take away all the sadness in me. :(

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We've been trying hard for 2 months. But It dosen't seem to work out like what we expect to be.

We've been trying hard just to make things work. We've been just trying TOO HARD for this relationship.

We're from different world. We know each other so well that we know we couldn't loose each other, but this time, we just have to learn to let go of it.

Maybe things are to rush? nah... I don't think so. Cuz we've been trying for the first 6 months and tried for 2 months just burden us more.

We are much happier to be besties rather than boyfie/girlf.

Think back last October, the first time I know you and the first time we meet each other. How happy we were that time? How big were our smiles that time when we meet each other?

If God really wants us to be together, HE would make our path crossed again. I hereby, wish you all the best in everything and thanks for everything that you've taught me.

We still are besties and I believe we're gonna be the best of besties! I'm gonna miss all the memories we had.

Promise me to go PKA, church or hang out with me together when we meet, will ya? Imma accept everything now. you too! :)

I'm keeping this. B&W. :)

Brain wash

Sigh~

Staying in a house with a widowed woman. I'm gonna be brain washed soon. I'm going crazy. Everything is submerged inside my heart. Every words from her mouth, I've gotto filter out one by one.

Lord, help me. please?

The best one I've ever had!

Did I mentioned that I'm excited about my piano class with Alyssa? Yes, I did in previous post! Omgness! I practiced piano whole yesterday. yes, I mean it! Whole day from 10am till9.30pm!! Nocturne by choppin of course!

Alyssa nailed it down one by one. Measure by measure. Bar by bar. She saved my Triplets that I've been working on for 6 months! She did it just in 15minutes! She's just the sweetest piano teacher I've ever met! She saved my nocturne! thank you!!!!! She saved everything!!!

She is the best piano teacher I've ever met. She's american educated. Her american slang kinda mixed me up sometimes. Her terms used are so different from UK's like quarter notes, sixteenth notes and so on so forth. Though, those terms are widely used in my university, but, I still prefer semibreve or crochet. haha....

Things that she learnt are so different from UK's which I love them all! Omgness. She taught me one by one like I said earlier. Most of it weren't taught by my current piano teacher. :).

Well, at least I learnt something, right?

I am blessed to have 4 lessons with her this holiday. Thank you, Lord for giving me this chance! Ahhh... I feel so blessed.

Her teachings made me wanna practice piano more! Her words encourages me alot!! Ahhh....

I was so happy just now and i drove all the way from jelapang which is her house to Jusco to get some groceries as aunt's fridge is totally out of stock! Me bought some drinks and well, bread. -.-

Ouh yea, The water meter outside aunt's house is stolen by IDK who! And this cause some water shortage since last night! goshh... idk why they wanna steal the meter! How much can they earn from selling those thingy? Ewwww....

Ipoh here is SUPERBLY hot like everyday. I can feel my skin is burning everytime I go out! And yes, It is fun to drive in Ipoh! Cars and drivers here are so "gentle" that I just feel like bullying them! haha...

Wait wait!! Alyssa's piano is fully imported from US. Super nice piano that I've never seen! Thought the shape is kinda weird, but then the sound produced is AMAZING! When Alyssa played the piano, my jaw drops. I couldn't stop myself from saying, "wow".

Btw, aunt found another cello teacher for me. This time an ex-RTM performer. Hopefully he's good!

Now only I know Americans don't pronounce the letter "t". Instead, Britons pronounce the letter "t".

*ciao*

ps : Memissyouverymuch!

ps : gained weight from 47 kg to 49kg. :'(

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Currently in Ipoh now. Started my cello lesson which I don't like the teacher. omgness. He sucks wey. He don't even know the right bowing technique(Which I kinda help him). All he knows is pitching and rhythm! Ewww... Imma find another cello teacher! Grrr...

Me had a short session with Alyssa today. She's gonna be my one month piano teacher in Ipoh. A doctorate student from US who loves Goreng pisang, idk why! haha... She's good! She saved my Nocturne piece wey! My triplet! Ahhh.. Thanks!! :)

She kinda inspire me to continue for masters and PHD btw! The way she describe living in Colorado, US which kinda made up my mind to study well in music and continue doing it till PHD! :)

This is the link to see her! Superbly well played Mozart's piece!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2OWVu0bksLk

ps : Can't wait to start my lesson this coming Friday!!

Last day Of exam!

Seriously, today is the last day of 1st year after wrapping with with contemporary exam. I was full with activities today which I don't expect myself to skip breakfast and lunch. My meal was only at 5pm today. omgness. Luckily no gastric. :P

Had dinner with Dr Yumi with coursemates at Penang Tims Square. It was just a simple dinner with awesome food and chat/gossips. Superbly nice ber-bonding time with lecturer and coursemates after weeks of exam(torture).

So yeah, as I was saying earlier. Rachel called at 8.45am which I suppose to wake up at 8am where I put my Itouch on snooze till I woke up cuz of the call. omgness... Get myself ready right away then, *poofff* out of hostel to practice room to practice. hmmm...

Exam was supposed to be at 10am which postponed till 11am which then postponed till 12pm. -.-. Ouh wait.... Supposedly On Monday(25-04-2011) morning at 10am. mana tau???

Luckily, I'm done with everything. Right after Contempt exam, I rush for my cello class, errr.. my last cello class before 4 months break. Pastu, Rush back to usm to attend recital till 4pm. omgness.. Super pack, kan? :P

Ahhhh... Dinner and movie with him wrapped up the night. Am superbly happy to have movie with him. Cuz It was like one month ago since we last stepped into the cinema! *wink*

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Mua spent rm100 for cleanser! I don't expect it to be rm100 tho! I thought its gonna cost me for rm60-rm70. mana tau, they don't sell 50ml. Ewwww... So, I got this lah....

ps : Thanks to him who carried my piano all the way to winnie's place. *muacks*

ps : piano class at 9am tmrw! Omg! @@

SCREAM!

Mood : Love Story by Taylor Swift!

Scream till my lungs fall out. Wait, Will they come out from my mouth? *think*

Done with 1st year and now what?

To-Do List for this 4 months :

#1 : get all of my piano pieces done this 4 months, My dear Beethoven, choppin, schumman and more, love me please.

#2 : Get "The Kite Runner" book from bookstore and read it! ouh yea!

#3 : Get all the fats off!! *Gym ball and swimming everyday at Perak Golf House*

#4 : Bring Grandma around Ipoh. *to pantai and lumut hopefully*

#5 : Learn Cello from uncle!

#6 : Learn piano from Dr Alyssa! *The most exciting part, yo*

There are still a long list to do in my mind tho. Ouh yea! Mumsie just got herself Iphone two weeks ago! Omg!!!!!! She didn't even tell me!!! She promised to get me one half a year ago, end up she get it for herself! ewww... jealous! Surprisingly she knows how to use "facetime" application which I thought she don't know how to use it! haha.. alright, my mum is learning!

One funny thing about mummy is she's actually not really good at internet and computer stuff. She once actually tried to pinch the screen on my lappie. She thought my lappie screen is like Ipad which she is sooooooo used to pinch it on her Ipad to ENLARGE pictures!! How funny, right?! I've always got reasons to tease her when it comes to internet and tech stuff!! haha..... But, when it comes to brands like La SenZa, Che Che and superbly high end make up brands, She's the QUEEN. No one would dare to argue with her!

Imma get her Bumper to protect her Iphone. I save money, yo! I eat bread everyday, FYI.

Anyway, It's gonna be a really exciting 4 months ahead. I can't wait to get it started and I hope its gonna be a longggg 4 months, please! I don't dare to face my 2nd year!

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Ahhhh.... He promised me so many things. Thanks. I can't get anyone better than you. I've told myself many times, Never let you go. Thanks for your patience and your heart that always accommodates me no matter how occupied you are.

BIGGG sorry for those who sees me when I stress. I memang show it out on my face when I'm stress. Ahhh.. Sorry. :(. This is just me. I pushed myself to hard this time. Too much pressure from all over. It tensed me up last two weeks. I hardly sleep before 12am last two weeks. It's soooo not me! I slept at 3am. Which I think He influence me lah! CUZ he NEVER sleep! :P

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Now, I just can't wait to go back Kuantan. *instead of kemaman*. A bunch of Best friends are there this coming 4 months break. I seriously hope to see them!! ALL OF THEM! ahhh...

Till then. Imma stop here.

ps : Start packing lah. The most exciting part every sem! muahaha!!

4 months

End of April already. A quarter of 2011 has gone just like that. And my first year in usm is coming to an end.

Reflecting back how I was when I first stepped in USM. How much I hated the hostel that I got. It was so dirty and small and yea, the revolving fan which is SUPER DUPER annoying! And you know what? I don't own a hair dryer for the first few weeks, so I kinda like sit under the REVOLVING FAN and wait for my turn to blow my hair! ><

I was devastated the first two days cuz I don't have any friends here. Angie twisted her ankle and left me alone there.

I remember how I mix with a group of friends here. My life turned over to a real exciting one. For the first time, I talked with a bunch of friends who are nice be get along with in USM. They're kinda like a saviour that time. Cuz I was being so lonely that first two days.

Ouh yea, forgot to mention my ex-roomate who never talk. haha... Apparently, she only talks to indians and malays. As I wasn't in that group of race, so, she never turn to me and talk. That's why I say I was devastated for the first two days.

I remember how I forced myself to sleep and thank god I was too tired enough to sleep and yea, we have to wake up very early in the morning just to go for prayer. hmm.. A nice experience tho!

It was July when I entered USM. I was in usm for two whole months(which i think it feels like 20 years) before I went back home. And I was so excited on the bus practically smilling for the whole 12 hours in the bus telling myself that I AM GOING HOME, finally. That was for two weeks break during raya period. Super happy that time!!! How I miss my GETHA back at home!

Btw, That was the time that I swear to myself the I never will take bus back home to Kemaman. Cuz it was freakin' cold inside. It feels like i'm in a movable fridge with idk how many wheels! haha..... *CRAZY*

One week that passed just like that was so much to be kept in mind. A bunch of new friends that i know here are going to be my friends for life. I love knowing new friends.

Thanks for all the memories that we had.

ps : Last paper tomorrow. * i can't wait to shout*

Happy two months!

Omgness! Two months already since the day I say, yes? mwuahhh!!!

I miss you like sooooo much!!! when was the last time we went into the cinema together? When was the last time you cuddle me? When was the last time you hug me tightly? When was the last time you stare into my eyes? *imma faint already*

It's exam period, me was so stress last week till I kinda neglected him. So sorry. He bought me chocos to release my stress which I finished it up in just 5 mins! omg!! A pack of m&m! Crazy, right? All because of TITAS and WORLD MUSIC that made my brain gone hare wire! omg!

Last Friday, It was a lovely dinner though it was short. I felt like I fall in love with you like again. So sorry. Cuz of the stress-ness till I put u at the back of my mind.

Yeah, We've gone through difficult stages and I believe we can do it for the next four months *super anxious*.

He asked me, what made you into me. I couldn't answer that cuz its just feelings that I felt towards you, dear. Inner feelings that I cannot express it out by words. :)

I miss you patting my head and say, I miss you.

I miss you staring in my eyes and say, I love you.

I miss you holding my hands and say, come let's cross.

I miss you cuddling me and say, listen to my heart beat.

Thanks for this two months. I may be the suckiest hot tempered girl in the whole wide world, but you are the suckiest boyfie I love! Mwuahhh!!!!

Study week, I was so close with a few of your besties till I felt so close with you, dear. It was the happiest moment in this relationship. Imma know all your bestie, gimme time! muahaha..... They were the ones whom I felt so close with and brought back my secondary school mates memories. <3

Thanks for bringing me up and thanks for making me a real independent girl. Thanks.

Ps : youarejustthebesttillIdon'twannaloseyou. alright?

Pss : wearegonnabejustfine.

psss : Iloveyou.

Mummy's day.

Happy birthday to the Queen of my family! Mummy!! She's always the #1 in my heart. Wait, there's still grandma, daddy, bro and sis! They're all #1 in my heart.

The one that I've always think of everytime I miss home is, Mummy.

The one that cried together with me when She sees me crying, Mummy.

The one that talked to me through the phone patiently, Mummy.

The one that I've always complaint stuff to, Mummy.

The one that always listens to what I say patiently, Mummy.

The one that we always have opposite thoughts which results in argument, Mummy.

The one that I LOVE eternally, MUMMY.

I wasn't the apple of my mummy's eye among three of us. Cuz I've always been the naughtiest among us. I've got bad grades and bad attitude. She never gave up on teaching me ballet and piano. She never gave up on me whenever I say I don't wanna do this I don't wanna do that, I hate doing this and that. She's always there for me whenever I needed her.

For the past 20 years, she's been there for me ever since I was born. yeah, She's the greatest for me.

Whenever she fails to comfort me, she'd turn to dad, which is my HERO. He is seriously good at comforting me where I'd cry one whole night thinking of the words he said. Well, That's just him, the DAD and the HERO of mine. :).

I am BLESSED, truely BLESSED to have both of them in my life. They coloured my life especially mummy's laughter where You'd just laugh together with her without knowing the reason of laughing! haha....

It's been a month since I last saw her and I admit I've been neglecting her because of hectic works. Sigh... I know its my fault. It's been weeks since I last talked long enough like we use to through the phone.

She used to call me twice a day when I was in Kuantan staying alone. She'd make sure I've got enough food and water. That's so mummy, right? haha... I love her.

We never say "I LOVE YOU" out to each other in our family, but we knew that we love each other so much till we just couldn't express it out through words.

I once sent "muacks" to daddy, and he told mummy, "Why ur daughter say "muacks"? He thought "muacks" = muak. omg..... *thunder*

Anyway, I cannot write long here. I ought to stop here though there's alot of lines going through my mind now.

PS : getting a present for mummy. Guess shirt, maybe? idea, please?

Catherine!!

These few days, I've been telling myself repeatedly with these lines.

"This is just the beginning of your new chapter, cat."

"HE puts you in this condition as HE has HIS own reason"

"Cat, you need to grow up, this is just the process".

"C'mon, have Faith in yourself!"

These are the lines that kept me going these days.

ps : tgh pms with schedule during study week!!!!

pss: for those who knows me, i gain weight like ALOT during study week! :(

Random

Taken from Crystle's camera. :).

Pictures taken in KLIA before Crys leaves for Japan for her programme last December! Happiest moment of my life. <3

当一个男的真正喜欢你的时候，他会主动发信息或者打电话给你，因为他很想你。

他会在乎你的一举一动，因为他怕他随时会失去你。

他看到你心情不好，就会来安慰你，尽管你对他发脾气，他还是忍了。

他会对你说些他的秘密，甚至有些连他最好的朋友也不知道的秘密。

爱的最高境界是经得起平淡的流年。

PS : Copy from fb punya! :)

When

When things get complicated I just need you to say, hey, things is going to be fine and let HIM lead us.

Pull me back, That's the thing that I want you to do ever since day 1. But, You stand on ur pride with your face held high saying, I bet we are going to be back together in less than a week without me doing anything. This is the worst sentence that A guy can come out with. Such a selfish guy, isn't?

Well, I've met this kinda guy like for the very first time and i'm encountering it. This is the worst guy ever i've meet where his words are worst than ever! Forgiving again and again and forgetting it again and again and promises again and again which eventually breaks my heart in the end. I'm just too tired for everything.

Can't you unburden me?? Can't you understand just a little tiny bit of me myself inside? I don't want to tell you directly that you're hurting me, but I want you to read this and think about it!

I was so excited for buying you the drink, but you turned everything down and not saying sorry until evening? Imagine that, you said sorry after 3 hours? The word sorry comes from KL wan issit? -.-

Being with you is rather crucial. This no doubt tested my patience level till the MAX! I mean it, MAX! I am not a girl for you to critic on, not for you to bully with, not for you to leave it aside when you're under pressure.

FULL STOP, i said. The next thing I wanna hear is, I LOVE YOU, please don't leave.

Instead, What I heard was, fine, if that's what you want, then ok. just make sure you made up your mind.

BREAK IT THEN. The next thing I wanna hear is, hey, don't be like that. we'll make it thru.

Instead, you said, I bet you will come back in less than a week without me doing anything.

The worst conversation I had and I've been like this for the past few weeks. I just don't show it out to my friends, but its been buried deep under so that I could present a happy face each time I socialize with other people. I buried deep under so that they won't ask.

You can never be the romantic guy that I've always wanted in my very own fairytale world, but you are the guy I love deep from inside my heart. You are the guy whom I just want to share all my problems with. You are the guy whom I want to lean on with till grey hair grows.

And yes, you may be the suckiest guy in his words, but you are the best guy in writing to his girl.

I don't do promises now. Cuz u've been ditching me ever since you know me and you've been breaking promises ever since the twenty fifth day of February.

Everything about us is about HIM. can you put that aside and just think only two of us?Think about your own problems, your own character, your own personality that can be changed for our future, will you? sigh~

You're the suckiest guy I've ever met but you're the guy I love and you're going to regret this if you continue like this!

I'm telling you

That it was the very first women's conference held in EPCC penang. Superbly nice due to the speaker. She'd been doing this for the past 10 years. Imagine how thick is her book if she's gonna write a book based on her experience.

The way she laugh would just crack everyone in the hall into laughter. I just love the way she talk. Thank God HE lead me to this conference and this conference obviously impacted me somehow.

This morning, The women's conference kicked off by shaking hands with people around you and greet them by saying, " you are beautiful". Isn't the nicest thing someone can say it to you like everyday? Tho I expect my own boyfie to say to me everyday. -.-

Know quite a number of new friends which I know its coming to the end of the sem and its kinda late already. But, yeah, who knows what's gonna happen next semester?

Learnt :

1.Build a bridge and cross OVER!

2. How you build your relationship with HIM reflects on how you build relationships with you own friends.

3. Be brave.

4. You are beautiful no matter how old you are.

5. Break the walls among everyone. ( This could make a HUGE difference)

Wai Quan & mua.

Carmen & Melanie .

Fong wan, Tien hui, Me and Winnie. :)

Winnie, Carmen, Tien hui, Joanna and Melanie.

ps : Still got quite a number of photos yet to be uploaded. :)

pss : can anyone teach me how to upload a gif. file?? please?

Tadaaaa

Okay. Even thought we're 5 minutes away from each other , but still we don't get to meet each other everyday. So, msn webbie is our next best friend to let us "see each other"? haha... ME miss him! Mwuahhh!!!!

A month and 6 days and still counting!!! ILY!

ps : Aural quiz tomorrow! C'mon!!!!!

Yoghurt

Taaddaa!!!! Say I'm healthy, please anyone?? ><

Yoghurt is rich in potassium, calcium, protein and B-vitamins

&

Research shows yoghurt strengthens and stabilizes the immune system.

Okay, I was shopping for some groceries and while I was browsing through the fridge, I saw this thingy waving at me asking me to pick him, so yeah, I picked and I have something to tell you, Its superbly nice! Wink*

I've always got this anti-ness of soft and mushy-mushy foods, but this Yoghurt turns out to be naisee! can da bian, yoo!! Fine... It helps in digestion lah.

The lactic acid of yoghurt is a perfect medium to maximize calcium absorption.In yoghurt the process of growth from milk into yoghurt involves the conversion of lactose into lactic acid. Lactic acid helps digest lactose. In other words, yoghurt provides the enzyme needed to digest milk products.Research shows women who eat 4 cups of yoghurt per week have less vaginal and bladder infections.

My aunt is the best cook in making yoghurt! She makes the best yoghurt in town, yo! :)

ps : Imissyou? :P

What's next?

So, I've got my long awaited 600D. What's next on my list? Current most wanting item is...... *drum roll please*

Instant camera, babeh!

White colour fish eye camera! Wootsss wootss*

So, why instant camera and why lomo?

Reason #1 : I've always wanted an instant camera. Where I love to collect photos taken by myself and my love ones. So, yea, I'd make a whole lot of collection out of this instant camera if I own one. :)

Reason #2 : Lomo. I'm influeneced by gene obviously! The apps on his I-touch is so tempting! I love the apps! Simply edit using the lomo camera apps would result in a nice photo.

Reason #3 : How cool is that to carry a fish-eye lomo camera if you can't get any nice accessories to hang over your neck!! haha....

I love taking photos as I could capture the very moment down and I'd love to share my thoughts and the very moment with the whole world. :). Cuz the time won't stop for you to capture those moments with your eyes. Some things meant to be happened and some things meant to be like that. :)

And yes, I want a whole new clothes in my wardrobe. New shirts, new dresses, new shoes, new heels and lots more. Its been awhile since I get my last mooks. omg... how long ago was that? A year?! ewww...... I miss buying mooks. Fyi : Mooks is from Aussie. Only available in KL, yo!!! Roxy is not my cup of tea anymore, btw!

ahhh... new line of coach bags! *itchy*

600D's first day in Arts School.

International Conference Held on the 23rd till 24th! :)

The pooh*

Mao mao*

Jean Teik*

Nice kan.... Photo yang ber-feeling. *wink*

Double Cheese*

Ruewen*

*Serious face* (Jgnlah kacau aku)

The Violinist. Except the right one.

Triple Cheese!

As days go by, its a month ago since me and coursemates last performed. Second performance is due tomorrow! jia you everyone.

Ps : Fore finger bengkak dah. :'(

Everything is fine

Hey peeps. Another blog post again.

The one and only left town for a night. He's going back to KL for his internship interview! *finger cross*.

Well, Started off today with TITAS early in the morning at 8am. Then LSP401's interview. I think it went well? Omgg.. Just gimme an A!!

Next, I had kinda rough day today. goshh... Felt so tired whole day but I don't feel like sleeping.

#1 :

Someone molested my 2nd baby, cello. When I asked that someone, He denied it. *fine*

#2 :

Baby cello got knocked and the G string is DENTED. *Stamp Feet*. GRrrr...... The moment when the sound "piak" produced, My heart shattered. I don't dare to open my cello bag. At that very moment, I thought all of the strings would have broken. But, NO.

The situation worsened when the GUY came in and ask then blaaaaaaa about his theories. I just kept quiet tho.

#3 :

Performance is this Thursday and I'm so DEAD.

Fine... The whole point about today was. My heart shattered because of the SUPERBLY LOUD SOUND produced when my baby got knocked. :'(

Well, hey. I just wanna tell you that everything is fine. I don't blame you on knocking lah. Just forget about it, alright? *hugsssss*

Weeee..... See the RAWR!! It means I LOVE YOU in dinasour! So cute, right?! His is white mine is green!! <3

Ps : Quiz on Thursday and Aural class is on Friday. *faints*

Welcome home and welcome.

Welcome my new baby. His name is Canon in 600D. My hero drove all the way from Ipoh to Penang just to get me to Ipoh as well to get this baby. How I love him. Thanks daddy. Thanks for everything in my life. You made dreams come true. I love you.

It was bro's birthday on the 18th which was yesterday. Went to makan besar2 kononnya in Ipoh. :). I'm glad that he's back. He's going back to Japan next Wednesday.

The Birthday Boy :

Crys and ced.

Family. *ignore the waitress*

To someone that I concern.

Hey, You know I miss you right? I know you're stressed out. I do hope that u'd share everything with me. Don't keep it to yourself only. I'd glad to hear everything from you. I'm a good listener, okay? So yea, keep it simple and easy, share your things with me. your problems, your sadness and your everything. I'd love to unburden your stress, alright? I repeat here, Don't keep it to yourself. That's a way to maintain a relationship, isn't?

Btw, I know you miss me and you don't wanna tell me that you miss me. Idk why. That's like always when we're apart. ewwww... Keep your pride away and say it out loud!! I mean it!! show your love, Don't keep it inside your heart. You pulak know what a girl wants and purposely don't wanna show it out. I am a girl, ok? :P.

I'm writing this to let you know that I love you that much! Mwuahhh!!! It's gonna be like a week of not hanging out with you next week! Omgness!

Like I said earlier, A phone call or text is more than enough for me. This is me.

ps : ILY & IMY!