My confessions

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2011-12-19T22:29:00.003+08:00

So, I had a chance to eat with my cousin sister few days ago. We were chatting about our lives that we are going through after SPM.

I only knew her since 15 years old. We were far away relatives. We were brought together one day during CNY "N" years ago. Ever since that day, we became besties. :)

We strive together for SPM. I remember the days where I study at her cozy big mansion in KL. Ahhh.... Superb nice!

I only get to meet her once a year which is only on CNY. But, I didn't get a chance to see her early this year, cuz I weren't back in Pantai that CNY.

Her boyfie, yeah! Finally, she got herself a boyfie! haha.... Back to topic, her boyfie, a penangite, she came to visit him and I insisted of seeing her afer knowing from my grandma that she's here in penang that few days.

She, of course followed her dream to study medicine. Currently in 4th year. After a year and a half of not seeing her, she'd grown so much, and am so proud of listening to her stories. Listening to her life in medicine line touched my heart once again. Ahhh.... How much I wish I could be just in her shoe!!

One thing I love the most about talking with her is, she's superb positive. She said, "Actually, medicine is not as difficult as you think, all you need to do is copy and paste". unlike engineering, you need to study and apply. ><

True tho! She said medicine is all about spending time with books! haahhaa...

Yeah, I miss chatting with her. Though its only a 2 hours chat at pelita, but the chat that i had between her and me, touched my heart again about my future. yeap.

"Be yourself. The world would be boring if everyone's the same." This is what I heard this morning once I start my car engine! Ahh... I love this sentence. I'm finding myself back. I am a loud and crazy girl where everyone knows that my personality is like this.

It could be a very tough week if we see it negatively, but it could be the most memorable week that one could have if one can just see it outside the box.

Last week of the semester. How fast is it to pass it just like that. Throughout the 3 months that I had, The proudest thing I've ever done to myself is, Accept christ into my life. The moment that changes my life forever.

Lord, I want the opportunity to help everyday. That's it.

My long lost brother

2011-12-04T12:44:00.003+08:00

He was born a month later than me.

He share the same age as me.

He has small eyes while me, I don't la.

He lost his sister a year ago. She is my half sister. :'(

I've never tell the world about this before. But, i'm gonna tell the world today that I've found my long lost brother 2 years ago.

To cut this long story, I'm glad that he's still out there.

There he is.

His small eyes always make me smile.

I still remember the day where He was waiting for the news about his sister. I called him so many times, but he didn't answer his phone and at the end of the day, he called me and told me the bad news. Yeap. I sounded much "sadder" than him that day through the phone call.

I'm glad that he's still out there.

May god bless him in everything in his life. :')

Life is Fragile

2011-11-11T14:20:00.002+08:00

Whole kemaman mourns for the lost of a great kid who is only 18 years old.

He met a car accident last Saturday and went into coma for a couple of days.

Each and everyone who visited him shouted at his name to ask him to wake up.

But, no response was given.

He gave up his life on Monday morning.

Those who received the news rushed themselves to Kuantan hospital.

His best friends wouldn't believe they had lost their friend until they saw him with their own eyes.

It was a really shocking news for everyone here in Kemaman. Even me myself would never believe a car accident in Kemaman can actually take someone's life.

I never know him.

But, through blogs, pictures and statuses that I read for the past few days, made me know him instantly.

He was a great kid. He could have a great future ahead.

He can somehow relate to me. His father was the one who sent me things every weekend to Kuantan when I was studying in Kuantan. But, throughout that 2 years, I never met his father.

His aunt, who was my teacher for 5 years straight. His aunt was the one who made me love Biology. His aunt was the one who drives my passion to study medicine.

Hearing someone who lost their family member can be devastating and sad on behalf. But, knowing someone who actually grew up with you and lost his/her life can really be a heart breaking one.

I pray that his family can stay strong to go through this hardship.

Family is always the first in my heart.

Friends around me are always the one that I trusted the most and the one whom I appreciate their presence in my life. The one who added colour in my life book.

Mate? I'm still searching. But, not at this very moment for me.

Lord, who made my life even much interesting since the start of the semester. I thank God for everything. I think Him for making me go through the hardship in my life. I think Him for always being in my heart, picking me up when I'm down, guiding me when I'm in darkness.

James 1:4

Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.

Relationships.

2011-09-20T20:39:00.002+08:00

So, I was talking to a friend. She mentioned about 3 most important things in our life.

1st : To know God

2nd : To know our mission in our life

3rd : To find mate.

What my friend said is true where she kinda opens my mind being a university student. I felt so blessed that God send this friend to my life. Thank you Lord.

It changes my thoughts a little about relationships. Yeah. Having a boyfie/girl is not everything in our life. One can actually missed out alot I meant ALOT of interesting stuff as in meeting interesting people, Hearing great stories, Get inspired to do crazy stuff, and most of all mixing with all types of people!

I just love the conversation earlier. It really answered everything that I was miserable about! Omgness! Thank you! :D

So, I broke up with one of the greenest guy in Malaysia. I was really sad over it. Cuz I really put alot of "effort" in it. But, life moves on. I was stuck in it the past few days until I talked to this friend that I met!

So, the guy I broke up with taught me alot of things. Architecture, green stuff and lots more. I really learn from what I experience. Last tear I'd shed is, now. That's it.

Being a university student, is the time for us to explore what is in this society before we get to a job and tie a knot with our other half.

Imagine this, when you're married, you're gonna face your other half for the rest of your life. Plus, you'll be spending most of your time after work with your other half. Which literally, you don't have a time of your own to hang out with your own friends. :)

So yeah. I'd choose to know God more and know what is my mission in my life starting today. Yes, I'm gonna get over it and be a new one.

Who says one cannot live after break up? No one!!

Hallelujah! I felt blessed!

23.08.2011

2011-08-23T15:53:00.005+08:00

It rained heavily here in kemaman last night. Today is a really fine day to get out of the house. Luckily it wasn't as hot as few days ago. Chin yang, Jo En and Andrew came all the way from Kuantan to Kemaman to pay a visit.

I haven't been seeing Chin Yang for almost a year! It was last year where I found him from Facebook after losing in touch with him after standard 4! omgness!! It's been like almost 10 years since the last time I saw him. We kept in touch because of Facebook! Thank you Mark!! And after keeping in touch for few months we met up and he told me that he's going to Germany for engineering course. sighh.. Everyone leaves Malaysia for further studies.

Jo en, she was my 2 months form 6 mate from kuantan. We used to walk to and back from school everyday until the day she decided to take up medicine course in Russia. I was so sad that I've only knew her for 2 months and she wants to leave kuantan already. sighh... So, I've only meet her once a year. She's a lovely girl.

As for Andrew, he is Chin Yang's bestie who study Electronic engineering in Manchester. He's a bully like chin yang!! -.-

Hearing stories from all over the world through them itches my heart where I can only afford to stay in Malaysia for a degree. I'd love to travel the world and broaden my knowledge. Which one day I believe, I will have the chance to go Europe, middle east, africa and everywhere! :D

So, chin yang got me gummy bears from Germany which apparently only produce in Germany, but you still can get it in UK. Superb chew-able gummy! I love it!! :D

As for this 4 months, I didn't waste it at all. I've gained confidence in teaching piano and ballet. I used to fear ballet and piano classes as children always bully me cuz I'm new. Mummy even let me handle a grade 5 ballet class as well as grade 2 piano class.

It is tougher to teach beginner than teaching a higher grade student. Cuz you need alot of introduction and you need to explain to them what is this and that. It is fun to teach beginners, cuz everything is so new to them. :)

Recently, I'm glued to disney channel and nickelodean, cuz I sticked with children like everyday! I've gotto watch cartoons in order to talk with them! haha... They love Ben 10 which my 6 year old kid can actually explain the cartoon role one by one to me!!!

And and and I love buying stickers and key chains to give them. They love stickers! IDK why!! haha... giving stickers to them encourages them to do well in their piano as well as work. :D

This 4 months, I Ber-bonding "gao gao" with both of my parents which I couldn't do it since I was 18. Thank you for the 4 months break. Though I didn't travel anywhere, but staying at home makes me more comfortable. Got to ber-bond with few of my friends here in kemaman as well as kuantan. But not all, cuz most of my frens r nt in malaysia. sighhh...

For piano, ahh.. of course! I practice everyday except friday! haha... Cello, dad says I improve which idk true or not. and I learn to play guitar (few chords only).

Oh yea, I had a great birthday with my family and friends. Dad plays his saxophone which he bought 2 months ago. He's so into saxophone today! I've got the video, but i don't think i'm gonna post it up! haha.. I'm keeping it in my computer! I got a secret recipe cake from mummy. Actually, I've got 2 cakes, one from my friend and one from mummy.

As for 21st birthday present, I got a new levi spec from daddy and mum says she wants to get me a key necklace, but I don't want it. :) Don't you think is old to wear a gold necklace?

Ahh... what a long post! I'm gonna stop here or else i'm gonna continue again!! -.-

My 3 years old boyfie. :D

Angie with the butt, liyu and teng teng on the 12th of Aug. :) *billy went back early

My favourite ballet student. :)

I got this pretty dress from Dorothy Perkins last June in Gardens! Superbly love this dress. *with Grandma*

My cake

Humble family without brother who's in Japan.

PS : Congratulations to bro who just done his master's exam and interview in Japan.

NOOKA!

2011-07-27T16:26:00.002+08:00

I've been eye-ing on NOOKA watch since I was 18, I just couldn't afford to buy such expensive watch. NOOKA wasn't in Malaysia until May 2010. I saw the first ever NOOKA retail store in Mid Valley. I practically ran towards the store like a mad lady. -.-

I've always wanted the sponge-bob NOOKA watch! arghh... guess how much is it? RM500. *BIGGGG SIGHHHH*

The design is from US. I like NOOKA watches as their designs are unique! Swatch pun tak secantik dia! :P

Link dia(scroll down to see all those watches) :

http://www.nooka.com/watch-c-1.html

Mooks got their own line of watches too! omgness!! GOT SPONGE-BOB wey! crazy!!! wait wait... NOOKA got Patrick too! hahaha.... Mooks' sponge-bob is also rm500. :(

So when I'm getting it? *sighh... not until I work and earn money myself. :)

FYI, I collect watches. :)

:D

2011-07-26T14:22:00.003+08:00

So, I was so sick last week till yesterday. Yeap, I've been sick for a week and three days! omgness... I look after dad's kindergarten and mum's piano as well as ballet classes. I didn't get much rest as those classes were quite intense. Everything gets better when parents got back from Hokkaido last two days. Mum took care of me, wake me up every hour to let me drink some warm milo. How great is that to be a mother, eh? She's the greatest of all. :)

Again, Japan smell is all over my house now. Full of Japan stuff again. :D. Me love the snacks, chocolates and each and every stuff bought from Japan. Another new line of collection! Wee~

Mum got me a Burberry bag!! My very first Burberry bag! heeee.... *I still love my coach! I wanted a small wallet from coach at first, but a small wallet or wristlet from coach cost as much as a bag from Burberry, so mum decided to get me the Burberry bag instead of the wallet. So yeah, I've gotto stick to my current wallet untill it spoils. :)

I've yet to stepped into a cinema since transformer is out! omgness!! Yet got the time to get my butt into a cinema! :s

Lavender! Ahhh.....

It's blue label, only in Japan. :)

sis at the back busy opening the music box.

Next up, I've gotto get myself healthy enough to go for jogging everyday! I'm gaining weight each day at home! :)

Memories that shouldn't be deleted. :)

2011-07-14T23:58:00.006+08:00

Got my hard disk and went through all the old pictures that makes me smile. Each and everyone of them are important in my life. Those are the ones who come into my life. Those are the ones who coloured my wall. Those are the ones who made me through the years. I cherish each and everyone of them. These are the pictures I'd keep forever and ever. Enjoy..

Those were the days. :)

My bestie and still is! :D

Still with bracess yo! -.-

Mine. <3

This pic is super long time ago. The future doctor, lawyer and my fern! -.-

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The first ever performance done together. :)

How happy were we? VERY. :D

The make up that made everyone mad. -.-

These were the memories that made me smile. Thinking of everyone scolding the make-up artist! omgness! hahahaha......

The first trip running away from orientation! :D

Everyone got into rapid penang and got ourselves to queensbay then KIM GARY.

The first pose with umbrella and the USM logo. -.-

How crazy is this, eh? We were laughing madly after taking this picture. Everyone who passed by stared at us for a minute!

This is what we do in practice room. always.... :)

I just realized that, I've only taken a few pictures. I should have taken more! Yeap... now, with my baby 600D, I'm taking everything i'm seeing!

You know, you just can't remember memories by not taking them down like jotting a particular event on your notebook. Sometimes, you just need to take out your pen and jot down or take out your camera and snap the moment down. Yeap, I tell you, you'd never regret taking it down. You see, technology nowadays allow us to have memory cards instead of "negatives"/ "films" where you actually need to walk into a photo shop to get your pictures done. tu lahhh... dengar kata ni.... " A picture tells a thousand words"! Hmph!!

*Don't ask me again why I wanna carry the big red bag around again!!!

1st of July

2011-07-01T19:04:00.003+08:00

First of July and I decided to write in this blog again. I have had deep thoughts about life and future this couple of weeks. Things and everyday life struck my mind about human relationships and self emotion. Things get more complicated when you get out of the society.

I don't trust in any romance relationships anymore. I am putting myself to be single yet available for as long as I can. I enjoy being like this. Lonely, nope. Cuz I got a bunch of friends out there waiting for me to hang out with. I was cheated again and again with the words of guys. I was fooled by sweet talks guys whom always had.

I am disappointed with relationships. As much as I look fine in the outside, I struggle in the inside. The past relationship I had, had thought me never to trust guys anymore. I am afraid of them now. yes, I am.

Though once in a while we need love and care, we have high expectations for what we want, but still, I don't want those anymore.

YOU. I told myself to not to find you nor talk to you anymore. Cuz this is just what I am after break ups. But still, you come texting me once in a while. Just. leave. me. alone.

Now, I need a shoulder to rest my head on like seriously, cuz I'm tired of thinking relationships now. I am really tired and sick of it.

I wanted to go out of Malaysia to get myself a new me when I got back.

I wanted a new me.

I wanted one.

I admit that I've put the most of myself and committed in the last relationship. I was so disappointed with it. I didn't shed a tear until I finally had a time alone and cried. As much as I wanted to save the relationship, it just dosen't seem to work.

Lord, take away the anger. Take away all the sadness in me. :(

hey guys

2011-05-14T08:31:00.001+08:00

I'm moving to a new blog. Mua gonna lock it due to some reasons. Do inbox me your email so that I can add you to view my new blog. *wink

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2011-05-10T00:21:00.003+08:00

We've been trying hard for 2 months. But It dosen't seem to work out like what we expect to be.

We've been trying hard just to make things work. We've been just trying TOO HARD for this relationship.

We're from different world. We know each other so well that we know we couldn't loose each other, but this time, we just have to learn to let go of it.

Maybe things are to rush? nah... I don't think so. Cuz we've been trying for the first 6 months and tried for 2 months just burden us more.

We are much happier to be besties rather than boyfie/girlf.

Think back last October, the first time I know you and the first time we meet each other. How happy we were that time? How big were our smiles that time when we meet each other?

If God really wants us to be together, HE would make our path crossed again. I hereby, wish you all the best in everything and thanks for everything that you've taught me.

We still are besties and I believe we're gonna be the best of besties! I'm gonna miss all the memories we had.

Promise me to go PKA, church or hang out with me together when we meet, will ya? Imma accept everything now. you too! :)

I'm keeping this. B&W. :)

Brain wash

2011-05-07T21:16:00.001+08:00

Sigh~

Staying in a house with a widowed woman. I'm gonna be brain washed soon. I'm going crazy. Everything is submerged inside my heart. Every words from her mouth, I've gotto filter out one by one.

Lord, help me. please?

The best one I've ever had!

2011-05-06T18:00:00.003+08:00

Did I mentioned that I'm excited about my piano class with Alyssa? Yes, I did in previous post! Omgness! I practiced piano whole yesterday. yes, I mean it! Whole day from 10am till9.30pm!! Nocturne by choppin of course!

Alyssa nailed it down one by one. Measure by measure. Bar by bar. She saved my Triplets that I've been working on for 6 months! She did it just in 15minutes! She's just the sweetest piano teacher I've ever met! She saved my nocturne! thank you!!!!! She saved everything!!!

She is the best piano teacher I've ever met. She's american educated. Her american slang kinda mixed me up sometimes. Her terms used are so different from UK's like quarter notes, sixteenth notes and so on so forth. Though, those terms are widely used in my university, but, I still prefer semibreve or crochet. haha....

Things that she learnt are so different from UK's which I love them all! Omgness. She taught me one by one like I said earlier. Most of it weren't taught by my current piano teacher. :).

Well, at least I learnt something, right?

I am blessed to have 4 lessons with her this holiday. Thank you, Lord for giving me this chance! Ahhh... I feel so blessed.

Her teachings made me wanna practice piano more! Her words encourages me alot!! Ahhh....

I was so happy just now and i drove all the way from jelapang which is her house to Jusco to get some groceries as aunt's fridge is totally out of stock! Me bought some drinks and well, bread. -.-

Ouh yea, The water meter outside aunt's house is stolen by IDK who! And this cause some water shortage since last night! goshh... idk why they wanna steal the meter! How much can they earn from selling those thingy? Ewwww....

Ipoh here is SUPERBLY hot like everyday. I can feel my skin is burning everytime I go out! And yes, It is fun to drive in Ipoh! Cars and drivers here are so "gentle" that I just feel like bullying them! haha...

Wait wait!! Alyssa's piano is fully imported from US. Super nice piano that I've never seen! Thought the shape is kinda weird, but then the sound produced is AMAZING! When Alyssa played the piano, my jaw drops. I couldn't stop myself from saying, "wow".

Btw, aunt found another cello teacher for me. This time an ex-RTM performer. Hopefully he's good!

Now only I know Americans don't pronounce the letter "t". Instead, Britons pronounce the letter "t".

*ciao*

ps : Memissyouverymuch!

ps : gained weight from 47 kg to 49kg. :'(

:)

2011-05-04T21:25:00.002+08:00

Currently in Ipoh now. Started my cello lesson which I don't like the teacher. omgness. He sucks wey. He don't even know the right bowing technique(Which I kinda help him). All he knows is pitching and rhythm! Ewww... Imma find another cello teacher! Grrr...

Me had a short session with Alyssa today. She's gonna be my one month piano teacher in Ipoh. A doctorate student from US who loves Goreng pisang, idk why! haha... She's good! She saved my Nocturne piece wey! My triplet! Ahhh.. Thanks!! :)

She kinda inspire me to continue for masters and PHD btw! The way she describe living in Colorado, US which kinda made up my mind to study well in music and continue doing it till PHD! :)

This is the link to see her! Superbly well played Mozart's piece!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2OWVu0bksLk

ps : Can't wait to start my lesson this coming Friday!!

Last day Of exam!

2011-04-29T02:00:00.004+08:00

Seriously, today is the last day of 1st year after wrapping with with contemporary exam. I was full with activities today which I don't expect myself to skip breakfast and lunch. My meal was only at 5pm today. omgness. Luckily no gastric. :P

Had dinner with Dr Yumi with coursemates at Penang Tims Square. It was just a simple dinner with awesome food and chat/gossips. Superbly nice ber-bonding time with lecturer and coursemates after weeks of exam(torture).

So yeah, as I was saying earlier. Rachel called at 8.45am which I suppose to wake up at 8am where I put my Itouch on snooze till I woke up cuz of the call. omgness... Get myself ready right away then, *poofff* out of hostel to practice room to practice. hmmm...

Exam was supposed to be at 10am which postponed till 11am which then postponed till 12pm. -.-. Ouh wait.... Supposedly On Monday(25-04-2011) morning at 10am. mana tau???

Luckily, I'm done with everything. Right after Contempt exam, I rush for my cello class, errr.. my last cello class before 4 months break. Pastu, Rush back to usm to attend recital till 4pm. omgness.. Super pack, kan? :P

Ahhhh... Dinner and movie with him wrapped up the night. Am superbly happy to have movie with him. Cuz It was like one month ago since we last stepped into the cinema! *wink*

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Mua spent rm100 for cleanser! I don't expect it to be rm100 tho! I thought its gonna cost me for rm60-rm70. mana tau, they don't sell 50ml. Ewwww... So, I got this lah....

ps : Thanks to him who carried my piano all the way to winnie's place. *muacks*

ps : piano class at 9am tmrw! Omg! @@

SCREAM!

2011-04-27T23:27:00.002+08:00

Mood : Love Story by Taylor Swift!

Scream till my lungs fall out. Wait, Will they come out from my mouth? *think*

Done with 1st year and now what?

To-Do List for this 4 months :

#1 : get all of my piano pieces done this 4 months, My dear Beethoven, choppin, schumman and more, love me please.

#2 : Get "The Kite Runner" book from bookstore and read it! ouh yea!

#3 : Get all the fats off!! *Gym ball and swimming everyday at Perak Golf House*

#4 : Bring Grandma around Ipoh. *to pantai and lumut hopefully*

#5 : Learn Cello from uncle!

#6 : Learn piano from Dr Alyssa! *The most exciting part, yo*

There are still a long list to do in my mind tho. Ouh yea! Mumsie just got herself Iphone two weeks ago! Omg!!!!!! She didn't even tell me!!! She promised to get me one half a year ago, end up she get it for herself! ewww... jealous! Surprisingly she knows how to use "facetime" application which I thought she don't know how to use it! haha.. alright, my mum is learning!

One funny thing about mummy is she's actually not really good at internet and computer stuff. She once actually tried to pinch the screen on my lappie. She thought my lappie screen is like Ipad which she is sooooooo used to pinch it on her Ipad to ENLARGE pictures!! How funny, right?! I've always got reasons to tease her when it comes to internet and tech stuff!! haha..... But, when it comes to brands like La SenZa, Che Che and superbly high end make up brands, She's the QUEEN. No one would dare to argue with her!

Imma get her Bumper to protect her Iphone. I save money, yo! I eat bread everyday, FYI.

Anyway, It's gonna be a really exciting 4 months ahead. I can't wait to get it started and I hope its gonna be a longggg 4 months, please! I don't dare to face my 2nd year!

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Ahhhh.... He promised me so many things. Thanks. I can't get anyone better than you. I've told myself many times, Never let you go. Thanks for your patience and your heart that always accommodates me no matter how occupied you are.

BIGGG sorry for those who sees me when I stress. I memang show it out on my face when I'm stress. Ahhh.. Sorry. :(. This is just me. I pushed myself to hard this time. Too much pressure from all over. It tensed me up last two weeks. I hardly sleep before 12am last two weeks. It's soooo not me! I slept at 3am. Which I think He influence me lah! CUZ he NEVER sleep! :P

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Now, I just can't wait to go back Kuantan. *instead of kemaman*. A bunch of Best friends are there this coming 4 months break. I seriously hope to see them!! ALL OF THEM! ahhh...

Till then. Imma stop here.

ps : Start packing lah. The most exciting part every sem! muahaha!!

4 months

2011-04-26T15:00:00.003+08:00

End of April already. A quarter of 2011 has gone just like that. And my first year in usm is coming to an end.

Reflecting back how I was when I first stepped in USM. How much I hated the hostel that I got. It was so dirty and small and yea, the revolving fan which is SUPER DUPER annoying! And you know what? I don't own a hair dryer for the first few weeks, so I kinda like sit under the REVOLVING FAN and wait for my turn to blow my hair! ><

I was devastated the first two days cuz I don't have any friends here. Angie twisted her ankle and left me alone there.

I remember how I mix with a group of friends here. My life turned over to a real exciting one. For the first time, I talked with a bunch of friends who are nice be get along with in USM. They're kinda like a saviour that time. Cuz I was being so lonely that first two days.

Ouh yea, forgot to mention my ex-roomate who never talk. haha... Apparently, she only talks to indians and malays. As I wasn't in that group of race, so, she never turn to me and talk. That's why I say I was devastated for the first two days.

I remember how I forced myself to sleep and thank god I was too tired enough to sleep and yea, we have to wake up very early in the morning just to go for prayer. hmm.. A nice experience tho!

It was July when I entered USM. I was in usm for two whole months(which i think it feels like 20 years) before I went back home. And I was so excited on the bus practically smilling for the whole 12 hours in the bus telling myself that I AM GOING HOME, finally. That was for two weeks break during raya period. Super happy that time!!! How I miss my GETHA back at home!

Btw, That was the time that I swear to myself the I never will take bus back home to Kemaman. Cuz it was freakin' cold inside. It feels like i'm in a movable fridge with idk how many wheels! haha..... *CRAZY*

One week that passed just like that was so much to be kept in mind. A bunch of new friends that i know here are going to be my friends for life. I love knowing new friends.

Thanks for all the memories that we had.

ps : Last paper tomorrow. * i can't wait to shout*

Happy two months!

2011-04-25T13:14:00.000+08:00

Omgness! Two months already since the day I say, yes? mwuahhh!!!

I miss you like sooooo much!!! when was the last time we went into the cinema together? When was the last time you cuddle me? When was the last time you hug me tightly? When was the last time you stare into my eyes? *imma faint already*

It's exam period, me was so stress last week till I kinda neglected him. So sorry. He bought me chocos to release my stress which I finished it up in just 5 mins! omg!! A pack of m&m! Crazy, right? All because of TITAS and WORLD MUSIC that made my brain gone hare wire! omg!

Last Friday, It was a lovely dinner though it was short. I felt like I fall in love with you like again. So sorry. Cuz of the stress-ness till I put u at the back of my mind.

Yeah, We've gone through difficult stages and I believe we can do it for the next four months *super anxious*.

He asked me, what made you into me. I couldn't answer that cuz its just feelings that I felt towards you, dear. Inner feelings that I cannot express it out by words. :)

I miss you patting my head and say, I miss you.

I miss you staring in my eyes and say, I love you.

I miss you holding my hands and say, come let's cross.

I miss you cuddling me and say, listen to my heart beat.

Thanks for this two months. I may be the suckiest hot tempered girl in the whole wide world, but you are the suckiest boyfie I love! Mwuahhh!!!!

Study week, I was so close with a few of your besties till I felt so close with you, dear. It was the happiest moment in this relationship. Imma know all your bestie, gimme time! muahaha..... They were the ones whom I felt so close with and brought back my secondary school mates memories. <3

Thanks for bringing me up and thanks for making me a real independent girl. Thanks.

Ps : youarejustthebesttillIdon'twannaloseyou. alright?

Pss : wearegonnabejustfine.

psss : Iloveyou.

Mummy's day.

2011-04-19T00:34:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to the Queen of my family! Mummy!! She's always the #1 in my heart. Wait, there's still grandma, daddy, bro and sis! They're all #1 in my heart.

The one that I've always think of everytime I miss home is, Mummy.

The one that cried together with me when She sees me crying, Mummy.

The one that talked to me through the phone patiently, Mummy.

The one that I've always complaint stuff to, Mummy.

The one that always listens to what I say patiently, Mummy.

The one that we always have opposite thoughts which results in argument, Mummy.

The one that I LOVE eternally, MUMMY.

I wasn't the apple of my mummy's eye among three of us. Cuz I've always been the naughtiest among us. I've got bad grades and bad attitude. She never gave up on teaching me ballet and piano. She never gave up on me whenever I say I don't wanna do this I don't wanna do that, I hate doing this and that. She's always there for me whenever I needed her.

For the past 20 years, she's been there for me ever since I was born. yeah, She's the greatest for me.

Whenever she fails to comfort me, she'd turn to dad, which is my HERO. He is seriously good at comforting me where I'd cry one whole night thinking of the words he said. Well, That's just him, the DAD and the HERO of mine. :).

I am BLESSED, truely BLESSED to have both of them in my life. They coloured my life especially mummy's laughter where You'd just laugh together with her without knowing the reason of laughing! haha....

It's been a month since I last saw her and I admit I've been neglecting her because of hectic works. Sigh... I know its my fault. It's been weeks since I last talked long enough like we use to through the phone.

She used to call me twice a day when I was in Kuantan staying alone. She'd make sure I've got enough food and water. That's so mummy, right? haha... I love her.

We never say "I LOVE YOU" out to each other in our family, but we knew that we love each other so much till we just couldn't express it out through words.

I once sent "muacks" to daddy, and he told mummy, "Why ur daughter say "muacks"? He thought "muacks" = muak. omg..... *thunder*

Anyway, I cannot write long here. I ought to stop here though there's alot of lines going through my mind now.

PS : getting a present for mummy. Guess shirt, maybe? idea, please?

Catherine!!

2011-04-05T21:50:00.003+08:00

These few days, I've been telling myself repeatedly with these lines.

"This is just the beginning of your new chapter, cat."

"HE puts you in this condition as HE has HIS own reason"

"Cat, you need to grow up, this is just the process".

"C'mon, have Faith in yourself!"

These are the lines that kept me going these days.

ps : tgh pms with schedule during study week!!!!

pss: for those who knows me, i gain weight like ALOT during study week! :(

Random

2011-04-03T17:58:00.003+08:00

Taken from Crystle's camera. :).

Pictures taken in KLIA before Crys leaves for Japan for her programme last December! Happiest moment of my life. <3

2011-04-03T13:08:00.000+08:00

当一个男的真正喜欢你的时候，他会主动发信息或者打电话给你，因为他很想你。

他会在乎你的一举一动，因为他怕他随时会失去你。

他看到你心情不好，就会来安慰你，尽管你对他发脾气，他还是忍了。

他会对你说些他的秘密，甚至有些连他最好的朋友也不知道的秘密。

爱的最高境界是经得起平淡的流年。

PS : Copy from fb punya! :)

When

2011-04-02T23:10:00.002+08:00

When things get complicated I just need you to say, hey, things is going to be fine and let HIM lead us.

Pull me back, That's the thing that I want you to do ever since day 1. But, You stand on ur pride with your face held high saying, I bet we are going to be back together in less than a week without me doing anything. This is the worst sentence that A guy can come out with. Such a selfish guy, isn't?

Well, I've met this kinda guy like for the very first time and i'm encountering it. This is the worst guy ever i've meet where his words are worst than ever! Forgiving again and again and forgetting it again and again and promises again and again which eventually breaks my heart in the end. I'm just too tired for everything.

Can't you unburden me?? Can't you understand just a little tiny bit of me myself inside? I don't want to tell you directly that you're hurting me, but I want you to read this and think about it!

I was so excited for buying you the drink, but you turned everything down and not saying sorry until evening? Imagine that, you said sorry after 3 hours? The word sorry comes from KL wan issit? -.-

Being with you is rather crucial. This no doubt tested my patience level till the MAX! I mean it, MAX! I am not a girl for you to critic on, not for you to bully with, not for you to leave it aside when you're under pressure.

FULL STOP, i said. The next thing I wanna hear is, I LOVE YOU, please don't leave.

Instead, What I heard was, fine, if that's what you want, then ok. just make sure you made up your mind.

BREAK IT THEN. The next thing I wanna hear is, hey, don't be like that. we'll make it thru.

Instead, you said, I bet you will come back in less than a week without me doing anything.

The worst conversation I had and I've been like this for the past few weeks. I just don't show it out to my friends, but its been buried deep under so that I could present a happy face each time I socialize with other people. I buried deep under so that they won't ask.

You can never be the romantic guy that I've always wanted in my very own fairytale world, but you are the guy I love deep from inside my heart. You are the guy whom I just want to share all my problems with. You are the guy whom I want to lean on with till grey hair grows.

And yes, you may be the suckiest guy in his words, but you are the best guy in writing to his girl.

I don't do promises now. Cuz u've been ditching me ever since you know me and you've been breaking promises ever since the twenty fifth day of February.

Everything about us is about HIM. can you put that aside and just think only two of us?Think about your own problems, your own character, your own personality that can be changed for our future, will you? sigh~

You're the suckiest guy I've ever met but you're the guy I love and you're going to regret this if you continue like this!

I'm telling you

2011-04-02T17:21:00.005+08:00

That it was the very first women's conference held in EPCC penang. Superbly nice due to the speaker. She'd been doing this for the past 10 years. Imagine how thick is her book if she's gonna write a book based on her experience.

The way she laugh would just crack everyone in the hall into laughter. I just love the way she talk. Thank God HE lead me to this conference and this conference obviously impacted me somehow.

This morning, The women's conference kicked off by shaking hands with people around you and greet them by saying, " you are beautiful". Isn't the nicest thing someone can say it to you like everyday? Tho I expect my own boyfie to say to me everyday. -.-

Know quite a number of new friends which I know its coming to the end of the sem and its kinda late already. But, yeah, who knows what's gonna happen next semester?

Learnt :

1.Build a bridge and cross OVER!

2. How you build your relationship with HIM reflects on how you build relationships with you own friends.

3. Be brave.

4. You are beautiful no matter how old you are.

5. Break the walls among everyone. ( This could make a HUGE difference)

Wai Quan & mua.

Carmen & Melanie .

Fong wan, Tien hui, Me and Winnie. :)

Winnie, Carmen, Tien hui, Joanna and Melanie.

ps : Still got quite a number of photos yet to be uploaded. :)

pss : can anyone teach me how to upload a gif. file?? please?

Tadaaaa

2011-03-31T22:06:00.003+08:00

Okay. Even thought we're 5 minutes away from each other , but still we don't get to meet each other everyday. So, msn webbie is our next best friend to let us "see each other"? haha... ME miss him! Mwuahhh!!!!

A month and 6 days and still counting!!! ILY!

ps : Aural quiz tomorrow! C'mon!!!!!

Yoghurt

2011-03-29T18:05:00.003+08:00

Taaddaa!!!! Say I'm healthy, please anyone?? ><

Yoghurt is rich in potassium, calcium, protein and B-vitamins

Research shows yoghurt strengthens and stabilizes the immune system.

Okay, I was shopping for some groceries and while I was browsing through the fridge, I saw this thingy waving at me asking me to pick him, so yeah, I picked and I have something to tell you, Its superbly nice! Wink*

I've always got this anti-ness of soft and mushy-mushy foods, but this Yoghurt turns out to be naisee! can da bian, yoo!! Fine... It helps in digestion lah.

The lactic acid of yoghurt is a perfect medium to maximize calcium absorption.In yoghurt the process of growth from milk into yoghurt involves the conversion of lactose into lactic acid. Lactic acid helps digest lactose. In other words, yoghurt provides the enzyme needed to digest milk products.Research shows women who eat 4 cups of yoghurt per week have less vaginal and bladder infections.

My aunt is the best cook in making yoghurt! She makes the best yoghurt in town, yo! :)

ps : Imissyou? :P

What's next?

2011-03-27T17:00:00.004+08:00

So, I've got my long awaited 600D. What's next on my list? Current most wanting item is...... *drum roll please*

Instant camera, babeh!

White colour fish eye camera! Wootsss wootss*

So, why instant camera and why lomo?

Reason #1 : I've always wanted an instant camera. Where I love to collect photos taken by myself and my love ones. So, yea, I'd make a whole lot of collection out of this instant camera if I own one. :)

Reason #2 : Lomo. I'm influeneced by gene obviously! The apps on his I-touch is so tempting! I love the apps! Simply edit using the lomo camera apps would result in a nice photo.

Reason #3 : How cool is that to carry a fish-eye lomo camera if you can't get any nice accessories to hang over your neck!! haha....

I love taking photos as I could capture the very moment down and I'd love to share my thoughts and the very moment with the whole world. :). Cuz the time won't stop for you to capture those moments with your eyes. Some things meant to be happened and some things meant to be like that. :)

And yes, I want a whole new clothes in my wardrobe. New shirts, new dresses, new shoes, new heels and lots more. Its been awhile since I get my last mooks. omg... how long ago was that? A year?! ewww...... I miss buying mooks. Fyi : Mooks is from Aussie. Only available in KL, yo!!! Roxy is not my cup of tea anymore, btw!

ahhh... new line of coach bags! *itchy*

600D's first day in Arts School.

2011-03-23T20:16:00.009+08:00

International Conference Held on the 23rd till 24th! :)

The pooh*

Mao mao*

Jean Teik*

Nice kan.... Photo yang ber-feeling. *wink*

Double Cheese*

Ruewen*

*Serious face* (Jgnlah kacau aku)

The Violinist. Except the right one.

Triple Cheese!

As days go by, its a month ago since me and coursemates last performed. Second performance is due tomorrow! jia you everyone.

Ps : Fore finger bengkak dah. :'(

Everything is fine

2011-03-22T18:00:00.003+08:00

Hey peeps. Another blog post again.

The one and only left town for a night. He's going back to KL for his internship interview! *finger cross*.

Well, Started off today with TITAS early in the morning at 8am. Then LSP401's interview. I think it went well? Omgg.. Just gimme an A!!

Next, I had kinda rough day today. goshh... Felt so tired whole day but I don't feel like sleeping.

#1 :

Someone molested my 2nd baby, cello. When I asked that someone, He denied it. *fine*

#2 :

Baby cello got knocked and the G string is DENTED. *Stamp Feet*. GRrrr...... The moment when the sound "piak" produced, My heart shattered. I don't dare to open my cello bag. At that very moment, I thought all of the strings would have broken. But, NO.

The situation worsened when the GUY came in and ask then blaaaaaaa about his theories. I just kept quiet tho.

#3 :

Performance is this Thursday and I'm so DEAD.

Fine... The whole point about today was. My heart shattered because of the SUPERBLY LOUD SOUND produced when my baby got knocked. :'(

Well, hey. I just wanna tell you that everything is fine. I don't blame you on knocking lah. Just forget about it, alright? *hugsssss*

Weeee..... See the RAWR!! It means I LOVE YOU in dinasour! So cute, right?! His is white mine is green!! <3

Ps : Quiz on Thursday and Aural class is on Friday. *faints*

Welcome home and welcome.

2011-03-19T15:09:00.010+08:00

Welcome my new baby. His name is Canon in 600D. My hero drove all the way from Ipoh to Penang just to get me to Ipoh as well to get this baby. How I love him. Thanks daddy. Thanks for everything in my life. You made dreams come true. I love you.

It was bro's birthday on the 18th which was yesterday. Went to makan besar2 kononnya in Ipoh. :). I'm glad that he's back. He's going back to Japan next Wednesday.

The Birthday Boy :

Crys and ced.

Family. *ignore the waitress*

To someone that I concern.

Hey, You know I miss you right? I know you're stressed out. I do hope that u'd share everything with me. Don't keep it to yourself only. I'd glad to hear everything from you. I'm a good listener, okay? So yea, keep it simple and easy, share your things with me. your problems, your sadness and your everything. I'd love to unburden your stress, alright? I repeat here, Don't keep it to yourself. That's a way to maintain a relationship, isn't?

Btw, I know you miss me and you don't wanna tell me that you miss me. Idk why. That's like always when we're apart. ewwww... Keep your pride away and say it out loud!! I mean it!! show your love, Don't keep it inside your heart. You pulak know what a girl wants and purposely don't wanna show it out. I am a girl, ok? :P.

I'm writing this to let you know that I love you that much! Mwuahhh!!! It's gonna be like a week of not hanging out with you next week! Omgness!

Like I said earlier, A phone call or text is more than enough for me. This is me.

ps : ILY & IMY!

Weeping

2011-03-17T17:45:00.004+08:00

So its coming to the end of 2nd semester of year 1. I'm sad. Cuz we're gonna be apart for like 5 months. That's really long to be exact.

He just told me that he's not gonna stay during study week. At first, I thought we could spent time and catch up with each other during study week, but, it wasn't like that. Sigh~

He went back to KL for only 2 days and I can feel the sadness inside my heart. My heart weeps silently without telling him. I can't imagine not seeing him face to face for 5 months. He's gonna be in KL and I'm gonna be in Penang, Ipoh and at home. That's like a hundred miles away. :'(

Hey, I'm telling you that I'm super sad now whenever I thought of the separation that We're going to face in just a few weeks time. :'(.

For a split second, I don't want this sem to end that fast. Exam week, I definitely won't be seeing you during that time, you know how I study, right?

Anyone outside there can teach me how to maintain a long distance relationship? I'm terrified. I'm scare. I'm sad.

Hey, Whenever I tell you i'm sad, I'm just hoping you'd be there for me. the word, *everything is gonna be alright* dosen't seem to work on me.

Till then. ~

Devastation all over Japan

2011-03-12T10:51:00.002+08:00

Woke up at 5am just to have a look at the news about the quake and tsunami that hit Japan. Death toll rose to 400 this morning. My phones are with me all night.

Luckily I can access to BBC live news where I can watch live videos and live updates. My lappie was on for the whole night just to get the latest news updates.

I can feel their lost and their fear when tsunami strikes. Everyone ran for their lives, cars being washed away as well as houses and fields being "swallowed" by sea water.

Nuclear power plants exploded. People around need to be evacuvated.

For this very particular moment, I wished my brother to come back straight to our side. My mind had been thinking all sorts of negative stuffs ever since earthquake and tsunami hits Japan.

"British mother-of-three Naomi Van Holbutt-Kirk describes emotional scenes at a school in Tokyo as she and other parents were about to collect their children. She says: "I could actually see my seven-year-old daughter crouched under a desk with her classmates... the building was swinging like a giant pendulum and I was just waiting for the sound of a crash from the adjacent building where my five-year-old son was still in his classroom. It did not collapse and the quake eventually stopped."

The news update That I read just now. My heart sank immediately. It's just like looking at something that is in danger and you couldn't help. How sad it is to be in such situation. :(

I pray that each and everyone who is in fear now, please be strong!! The chilling sound of the tsunami alert will soon change to a sweet and nice song. Pray. May Lord be with them.

Desperate momento

2011-03-11T22:59:00.002+08:00

I was in English class till 6pm today. I didn't know Earthquake and tsunami happened until I switched on the radio. I called mummy straight right after hearing the news. She sounded so worried for both of us(bro and me). I know how it feels like to be a worried mum.

She sounded so worried and daddy was there worrying too. I received 14 missed calls from them which makes me so guilty for not answering them. I didn't answer, cuz I switched my phone to 2nd sim card.

Mummy's voice made me worry and quickly made myself to contact my bro as well as his gf. I Couldn't get through.... After so many times of trying, I still couldn't get through.

I received a call later from daddy. I was kinda reluctant to answer it. Cuz it MIGHT be a bad news. Goshh... I was so nervous to say "hello".

For that very particular moment, I got alot of things I wanted to tell my brother who is in Japan now. That's why I've always emphasize on appreciate each and everyone of u around.

The feeling of so helpless after knowing some love ones who is in danger and is 30000 miles away from me is really BAD!

Pray is the only thing I can do and I've been praying ever since I received this news.

"Be strong and take heart,

all you who hope in the LORD."
Psalm 31:24

A million thanks

2011-03-08T22:48:00.003+08:00

My phone is dead. I can't text with my W910i. This happens like three days ago. ahhh.. I can't do anything with it. Restarted my phone again and again, but it dosen't seem to work. So, I gave up on trying.

I gave my phone to Elizabeth cuz She knows someone who repairs phone. So yeah, I was "hand-phone-less" for a day today. Goshh.. How I miss texting with him. I can receive his msg, but I can't reply him!

So yeah, He got me this.

Introducing my new baby. This baby's name is genie!! <3

I love him as much as he loves me. Thanks for the phone. I'm blessed with him. Thanks like a million thanks!!! This is a two sim card phone! weee.. Am getting a digi number like tomorrow!!! weeee.... Thanks again! I rub you!!!

He's always there for me to pinch and slap! :P. I love him. When I needed time for myself, he'll just keep quiet. haha... memang wanna pinch him for being such an obedient boyfie! Mwuahhhh!!! I love him for being such an understanding boyfie! And one thing I dislike is, He know alot of thing bout girls which freaks me out a lil'. :P

ps : Iloveyou.

Talk

2011-03-04T21:48:00.002+08:00

I called daddy this evening right after English class. My phone is dead. I can't text but to call only. The conversation goes like this.

me : Daddy, I used up quite alot of money this few weeks.

Daddy : Nvm. Just use it lah. Not enough, just tell me. U can pay me back in the future.

awww... Isn't it the sweetest thing a dad can tell a daughter? In just a split second, I just felt like he's the greatest man on earth! He loves me that much that he wouldn't mind me over spending. And He promise me to get me a canon 600D. Which now, I felt a little bit guilty asking for one dslr. hmmmm......

Daddy is just the greatest man. I couldn't resist saying that I love him. He is the one who brought me up and walked with me throughout my life. For the past 20 years, I've been giving him problems and problems to solve. Now, I'd promise myself to study hard for my own future and for him. yeap... Its march now, and i'm gonna hit the books already!!!

jia you! God bless me.

ps : imissyouandthanksforbeingthereforme.

He knows

2011-02-28T23:10:00.002+08:00

He knows i'm stress and he got me this.... ahh... thanks. <3

The best Thing

2011-02-27T09:38:00.004+08:00

Found this early in the morning after doing laundry!! He's just the sweetest thing I've ever had. Thanks. I really appreciate it!! Lim Gene-Harn.

ps : another great weekend!

pss : Ohhh noo!! Anothe Tuesday!!!

:P

2011-02-26T22:41:00.002+08:00

Fruitful day indeed!!! Woke up early in the morning to get my baby myvi for service! Imagine me waking up at 6.30am on saturday morning... ewwwww, right?! haha... I know!! Cousin texted me, asking me for lunch together with uncle n aunts cuz is baby Nadia's one month birthday! I'm shooo excited for the lunch just now, cuz its been quite some time since I last saw Nadia. I wonder how she is right now!! :)

Things got worse when I had sorta expired bread from bread history!! Omgness!! I couldn't stand the pain while I was otw to cousin's house. So yea, I called my cousin, informing her that I won't be able to attend the lunch. ahhh... *sad*

ahh... Me went for movie with him at first avenue after I felt much better. "drive angry" is the movie. Star rating, 0/10! Superbly VIOLENT movie which I memang antiiiiii all these while!! ewwwww..... tak suka Nicholas cage act those kinda character mann!!!

Went to SNL just now. yeah, Love the talk. Imigrant workers. We, Malaysians, don't appreciate them, we treat them as if they are responsible to do those jobs. They too, have their own family, their own dignity. hmmm..... Imagine one day Malaysia for not having those imigrants building our sky-scrapers!! Dear Lord, please bless them.

ps : L.O.V.E

First public performance

2011-02-24T19:41:00.003+08:00

It was a nice performance we, first years had. Played and sang under the hot noon sun! Imagine how hot it is! hmm....

I didn't know moving instruments is a tiring job until todayh! omgness... one hour performance with so much effort put into! ahh... my muscle!! pain!! I've gotto carry bass guitar some more!

He came. I'm glad that he came. superb happy that he gave me m&m! weee.... my fav with peanuts some more!! wuuuuu!!!

ps : sending my baby myvi for service this saturday for the first time in Penang. :)

pss: mooovviieeee after thatttt!!!

23.2.11

2011-02-23T22:53:00.003+08:00

mood : Save you by kelly clarkson!

Tiring day. But I'm glad that I've used up the day well. English class was at 8.30am, but I went at 9am! lol... Straight kena buat essay once I stepped into the room!! goshh... Luckily It was in the morning and I'm still bluurrrrr with things. blaaa... I just wrote what's in my head!

Straight after English class was music history class. Lucky us to have exam last week, if not i'm so dead this morning! Straight after Music history, here comes my piano and cello class. I practically ran towards my car and get back to my room to get my baby cello. Rush siall!!!

pastu, came back around 3 without having any lunch mua rush towards music room to practice for tomorrow's performance. omgness.... luckily I asked Elaine to buy me lunch, if not, i'm gonna have gastric for the 2nd time in a week!!! Thanks to her!!

omgness... Then class at 5 pulak. stupid critical thinking!! grrrr.... tak suka sial!!! That lecturer who wears the same pants everyweek and wears a cap to class!! apala!!! *slap*

Got back to room and straight *piaakk* on my bed!! ewww....

Night time, mua had dinner with him. lovely one. :)

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me miss you like ALOT!!! once a week is more than enough. Me likey!!! hipp hipp hurrayy!! IMY!!!! xxxxx!!

till then, all the best to me for my first public performance with all my coursemates!!

The ultimate Trip with seniors

2011-02-20T13:40:00.002+08:00

One word to describe the trip : Amazing!

Two short days trip meant a whole life for each and everyone in that trip. It was Awesome. Food and places that we've been are just superbly nice. I am seriously gonna miss them after they graduate. gawddd.... Where can I get those fun again after they graduate?

Taiping and Ipoh. That's the two ultimate place that we went. Superbly nice. haha.... Taiping was fun. I love the smell of village and sweat gao gao when we eat. Isn't just the way villagers eat? I just simply love it.

Ipoh. The place that I miss so much. gosh... I love there till max!! How I miss the food there. Ipoh white coffee especially. You definitely cannot find them else where except for Ipoh town itself! gawdddd.... Love it!!

Everyone talked bout their childhood memories which makes me think back when I was a little girl. LOL... playing with brother and snatching his stuff to be mine is the best part of my childhood memories! haha... I still remember how angry he is when I cry and told mummy that I want his toy!!! *evil*

Everyone talked bout their own childhood memories where everyone laugh. Gosh... The laugh that I've been missing!!! I just love them. It was a superbly nice trip!!

In the future, kids won't be able to experience what we experience. They're gonna face gadgets and gadgets only. play station, I-phone and I-pad are their only topic. yeap... this kinda childhood memories should be sealed and locked in our brain. It's just priceless!!

Everyone gone crazy when they saw toy shop. lol... that's the funniest part. haha!! crazy* I am superbly glad that They love the places I brought them. Thank God for HIS guidance. Hallelujah.

Massive gastric that I've never experience before. gawdd.... one whole evening spoilt by my stomach. sighhh... my stomach cramp until now. I can't walk straight. goshh.... Am gonna walk like an old lady this two days.

doc said, no oily food, no spicy stuff and most of all no cold milk. She says cold milk like normal dutch lady pack is not good for our body. Calcium that contained in cold milk won't be absorbed by our bone. cool!! I've learnt a new fact! :) ouh yea... she even mentioned that some peope died because of cold milk. ewwww~~ so, its a big NONO for me anymore! :)

NO SUPPER FOR ME ANYMORE. eww.... the suckiest part of all!!! so D-A-M-N!!

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His election is tomorrow. I know he is busy with his stuff, but still, he got time for me. I am so glad that he called. All the best for him from the bottom of my heart. xoxo!

Pictures are in facebook. Please go like them!! Cuz I love all of the photos we've taken! <3

pssttt!!

2011-02-18T00:33:00.005+08:00

I'm getting this soon!!!!!! I'm so excited!! omgness!!!! It's been my dream for the past few years to get one of this. Bro got one like so many years ago with rm7k lens and me got normal compact sony T2 only! ewww... so not fair right?? and and and my sis got new canon compact too!! ewww.....

I tak boleh tahan every events without a proper camera!!!! grrrr!!! ><

Ps : The mummy said I can get a new phone. *wink*

ps: cuz my phone memang cacat edi.

Farewell

2011-02-16T15:56:00.003+08:00

It's 16th of February and one of my bestie is leaving Malaysia. Sigh.. one more gone. I hate saying goodbyes and seeing friends leaving one by one. She's leaving for Auckland. Gosh... I never thought this day would come until now. :'(.

It is no doubt sad to say goodbye. I'd certainly cry if I am the one who leaves mummy and daddy for a year or two by not seeing them although I know technology advances today. But, it is different by seeing face to face.

Well, I seriously hope that She's gonna do well in Auckland. God bless her.

I hate saying goodbyes. That's for sure. And I suck at saying good bye like everytime.

Jia you, babe!

My baby

2011-02-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

His smile would be the cutest of all babies at daddy's centre. gawd. he's just cute. I went back the other day and had a peek at 3 years old. They are just the most adorable class ever. Whenever I enter that class, I'd feel like a small child again. gawdd.... How I miss playing with them! haha.... *mushh musshh*

ps : tengah stress nih. *crazy*

The special day

2011-02-14T22:01:00.007+08:00

Tadaa!! :P

Before I start my story, have a look see at my babes first. 3 pretty ladies went out on a night to E-gate. Supposedly makan kat Hidden, but then i suggested E-gate. Then we wanted to enter some kinda Italian restaurant, but FULL la of course. Then ended up go papa rich. But then, those foods there weren't meant for V day, so We masuk Secret recipe after angie went to survey! haha.... Love them till max! Pictures!!!

Giee, Yjing and mua!

Yinn Jeng and Mua. xxxxx!!

Giee!!!

Love this pic taken by yjing till max!!

Valentine's this year was a whole new experience. I woke up from a dream of me receiving suprise and, it did come true when someone came knocking at my door as early as 8.30am. I was in a really blur mood where I wasn't in my specs. gosh.. I was squinting my eyes to look at the flower girl. -.-...

He bought a bouquet of chocolates which is my favourite of all time! haha... Love them till max. I cannot resist the temptation of looking at those chocolates without eating it, so I've got one ball out and MAKAN lah of course! apala....

dinner? nah.. I didn't went out with him. He got this cell group thingy but then he texted me his cell group was cancelled when I was out with my girls.

Everything started like 4 months ago. hmm.... he said something that.. um... made me think? I was waiting for him to say those words like 3 months ago. I think these 4 months made us understand each other more. It was a great night after dining with my babes there. Me talked with him for almost 2 hours? haha... I don't let him go away till pass Vday. *wink*

Anyways, I'm really glad to have you. *hugs*

Beetle.

2011-02-09T22:22:00.007+08:00

How I love driving beetle. omgness..... I love driving beetle. I love driving beetle!!! I love driving beetle, I love driving beetle.... haha... I can go all day long!! But I still love my Myvi. :)

Things had been so complicated nowadays. goshhh... Had critical thinking class in the evening and what the lecturer said kept me thinking. It keeps running in my mind till I don't have the mood to go for dinner just now. sighh.

CANCER. 6 words who kills so many people in the family. :'(. *someone* might be one of the victim someday in the future. That's why I've been emphasizing appreciate everyone around. Live life, LOVE life.

I'm Scare tho. yeap, i'm scare.

nvm... like I mentioned earlier, live life!! These are some of the picta that I got them from Kah hui's new ELM...

Kah hui & mua

Ini ialah cutest thing I've ever met. Don't try to bully her.

Pretty, eh?

You should see her in curly hair. U'd fallen for her at first sight. :)

till then.

ps : Valentine's, anyone?

1.2.2011

2011-02-07T00:24:00.002+08:00

First day of February. Welcome Nadia to this world.

She's here after each and everyone waiting for months and months. Everyone anticipates her arrival. omgness... She's the cutest little thing I've ever laid eyes on!

I went to visit her this afternoon. She's only 5 days old. Her skin is still in pinkish. Gawd.. I can't take my eyes off her once I look at her. I can't stop myself from smiling when I look at her. gosh...

I stayed with her for more than 5 hours today. And I notice that how a mother sacrifice their own sweet time just to look after her 24/7. How the baby reluctantly drink the milk, how the baby cry for her own mother and so on so forth lah.

I held her hands of course. Believe it or not, her whole hands can only grab my one finger. omg.... God's creation, how wonderful it is! How the baby grows. omg... I can't really describe the feeling i'm having right now. Her fingers felt so soft... omg.... *heart melts*

Nadia, loves sleeping while the tv is on. isn't she wonderful?? She loves music according to what her grandma said.

When I look at her, my heart melts. Each and every emo things gone!

Her cry, memang macam alarm clock. haha... every two hours, she need to be fed. every hour she'll poo. haha.. *normal la for newborn*

I didn't carry her, cuz she's like sooooo FRAGILE. omgness.. the head can turn like 360degress... * exaggerating*

5 days old. still can't believe it. :) When she open her eyes, u'd want her to look at you and call u. haha...

May God bless her.

ps : Iwanthebraceletefromindia!!

going.

2011-01-29T11:59:00.002+08:00

I'll be back home tonight! I'm superbly excited! muahaha!!! Crazily excited!!!!

Works during cny this year :

1)Spanish dance song for mid term! C'mon!!!!!! *God, how I hate practical*

2At least 10 pages of report for Prof. Tan.

3)read up TITAS for mid term!

4)practice new song for contemp. class and upcoming performance. *sighhhhh*

5)Bring grandma to wet market every morning. *this thingy practically is a reponsibility ever since i got my license. *but me likey to go*

I can't wait to get home and show mummy my new clothes I bought here! LOL... mua first time not spending more than one thousand on CNY clothes!!! muahaha... Daddy's so proud of me!!! I tell you guys, the clothes here seriously nice and cheap weyh!!! *in condition where you shop* I used to get MNG ROXY MCKY ESPRIT and so on so forth. But this time right, I tak beli!! Muahaha!!! Believe me!!!

wait... I got one mini from Esprit la. I tak tahan mah. But, just ONE!! :)

When I'm back from cny. I've to stop buying clothes. omgness... seriously I have to stop!!! Influenced by my coursemates!! ewwww..... My coursemates memang pandai buy and eat ho liao wan. omgness!!! XD

"went to visit my sister. I remembered my dad told me i did a good job taking care of her and sent her to the hospital. But...good it seems, is not enough."

Status written by teen hau. My foster brother who study in Kampar. The one that lost his sister just months ago. If you're reading this. Please stay strong and live life for her!! 加油！ ILY!!!

ps : I can't wait to get home and smell the aroma of my ROOM! Grrrr >

I'm going home.

2011-01-27T20:14:00.004+08:00

Yeap. The title says it all. I'm going home after one month of suffering here. Today is a really crucial day. I received the ultimate mid term exam score. Sighhh.... Always received it with my face turning from smiley to worry. ewww..... tak suka! Spanish Dance, that's the title for this mid term. I've gotto conquer it within 2 weeks?? Damn.... 4 pages. It's short, but its difficult. :(

ahhh.... How I miss home. Looking back at the photos me, daddy and mummy took during our Trip last month. ewww... How I miss japan too!!! :'(! The foods!! The people there! arhhh.... This is just too crazy!! This August! Mua wanna go again!!! C'mon!!

How sad it is to be so far away from your family, huh?? Me start to miss home already!! ahhhh... Tolong!!! Me miss home after watching some chinese new year videos posted online there on facebook. Tuuu la!!! Siape suruh mu bukak?!

Me browse through some photos me and my family took last month. ewww.... I wish to turn back time. :). My sister seriously had grown alot after joining her AFS student exchange programme.

From a shy girl, he became a girl who's actively involved in her social network now. I believe she has more international friends than me now!! ahhh... *jealous*

From an unknown girl who grows up from a small town, she's known all over already. She even have friends all the way from Aussie! And she's only 16!

From one anti facebook girl, to a superbly active girl in Facebook! Imagine she talks about how fun is facebook with those NOTIFICATION thingy going around. *slaps*. She memang use to anti facebook before she actually owns an account!! She asked me open one account for her right after she's back from Japan. apala....

From a quiet girl, to a TALKATIVE girl!! ewww.. I still like her quietness! Cuz I can bully her ma! :P... Now she's the one who talks at home, not me anymore. ewwww....

Pictures! :)

Ignore my sleepy eyes. It was 12am at KLIA that day

The crystle before leaving for Japan.

ps : I don't think she had unpack her stuff from Japan. We'll see when I'm back home this sat.

Tuesday.

2011-01-25T18:12:00.003+08:00

This is the only Tuesday I love in 2011! Omgness! You know why? Cuz there's like no scariness in Ms Lena's class today. haha... Maybe cuz she's in cny mood too?

Me had a fruitful day today. Had less than 7 hours sleep last night cuz of rhythmic dictation homework la. Result of a last minute work! haha... Dragged my ass up at 7am this morning for 8am class. TITAS! apala.... go there to be tortured with the coldness of the lecture hall. Right after TITAS is Ms lena's. ewww.. Then lunch, Then Theory class.

Pastu mua go get the cello strings and straight went for piano class. Then repair cello's C string at Miss Ong's place. haha....

ehh... Show you guys something that I got from Mr Raymond's niece. Gosh... She's the cutest thing i've ever met! She's Ashley and her baby sister is Zoe. haha....

She draw this while I was waiting time to leave for Miss Ong's house. Its written, "DONE BY ASHLEY, COCONUT TREE".

A friend of mine approach me and my friends asking what is the best present to give for his girl for valentine's. Awwww.... Why la this thing never happens to me wan? *slaps* Yea la... aku tgh jeles nih!! Shhh!!! I nak flower jugakk!!! I nak plush toys jugakk!!! I nak I nak I nak la!!! :P

I'm loving my new headset wey!!!! I can sing as loud as i can!! cuz I can't hear me myself is out of pitch or not! Weeee!!!! but in a condition where my roomate is not in la! haha....

Till then peoplessss!!!

Budak swimming club tuuu!! arhhhh..... The smile that could melt my heart again and again. omgness!!!

i'm going home! Weee!!

Home

2011-01-25T00:47:00.002+08:00

Home. There's the place where I will be for the next few days. Omgness!!!

Mood : LOVE STORY!!!

my GETHA!! How I miss you!!! arhhhhh!!!

My sony!!! How i miss pressing you for channelsss!!!!! arhhhh.....

My apple!! How I miss playing you!!!

And most of all!! My fridge!! How i miss opening you for fun just to stare at the foods grandma arranged!!!

wait wait.. my AIR-COND!!! How can live without you!

Weeee!!!!!finally! I'm gonna celebrate cny at HOME!!! arhhhh..... This time, with family and friends. Not with relatives. ahhh.... after so many years! :)

We might get our mid term piece before cny. sighhh... I'm gonna stick with piano for the whole cny again! ahhhh....

takper.... aku nok balik rumoh dohh!!! ahhhhh..... u guys there! Feel free to come my house yea! :). I'm in superb good mood now after having coffee!! haha.... no mood for aural tmrw!! Wee wee wang!!!! :P:P

*shake shake shake*

Teng, U better come back kemaman when u see this post! I miss you like HELL!!!!

Yu, U better stay at kuantan until the day i go n find u!!! ahhhhh!!!!

Harmin, U biatch! U stay where u r until i go grab ur boobs!!!

everyone! Can't wait to be home. that's for sure!

okay, I miss home now. I miss teasing mummy! haha... She's always the one whom I teased till she stop talking! haha... how bad am I as a daughter? wait... in a good way, ok?? haha.... The ultimate daddy who loves her alot, lets me buy new clothes without complaining me spending so much. Love him till MAX!!! Muacks!!!

ahhh... its 1am now. I'm still hype. goshh... I'm having morning class at 8am tmrw! I'm soooo becoming a ZOMBIE like again? takper... for the sake of home, I'd wake up early!!!

Till then, peeps! xoxo!!

what's that?

2011-01-23T00:20:00.002+08:00

garhhhh..... the news I received this afternoon spoiled my day today. sighh....

Raymond's piece, i'm gonna conquer it before tuesday!! arhhhh!!!! two of them!!! Nocturne and rondo!!!! C'mon!!!!

my beloved cello, please let me tune u into pitch, alright? Be good. You know how much I love you!!

My beloved car, please be patient until the day I actually free to bring you for a car wash.

mix feelings, i had. I miss home. This is the first time in this sem i'm saying this. I miss home cooked foods. I miss grandma. I miss everyone.....

till then.

ps : break is just next week. caniseeyoubeforeuleaveforIndia?

Be strong, mate.

2011-01-22T13:33:00.003+08:00

Mood : Speechless by lady gaga.

Some things just happened without any notice.

He lost his mum just this morning. sighh.... Too sad to hear that. All I can do is pray for him. May god bless him in the future.

Appreciate each and everyone around you. Never do things that you will regret. Live life to the fullest!! Every second, every minute counts. Never waste any of them.

Forgive and forget.

You over there, do stay strong. Everyone is here for you.

Till then.

PS : itsasadthingtohearsomeonelosttheirloveones. :'(

Pictures. :)

2011-01-21T19:20:00.005+08:00

Mua can feel the tiredness of having only 3 hours sleep after one day. goshh... I was like zombying thru arts school today. Mua woke up early to do laundry and straight I dragged myself up to practice room!! Grrrr><.. Meeting was at 1pm, san promised me to get me lunch, but she was late, so ended up to have lunch after the meeting. Thanks for buying me lunch, san!! Muacks!!

Mua promised u guys with pictures kan? Nahhh......

The ultimate second baby! Love love love it till max!!!

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Dato' Johari salleh with azmeer! :)

Dato Johari and mua la!

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I still love my myvi!!

Till then, peeps!

Ps : itsbeenamonthssinceilastsatdownwithyouforaproperdinner. when?

Fruitful day.

2011-01-20T22:52:00.002+08:00

Less than 3 hours sleep and less than 2 hours plan.

Omgness. I can't believe that me and my coursemate actually planned to go kl in only less than 2hours!! Thought it was a tiring yet expensive trip, but everything's worth the price! Thank God that I've made a correct decision that does not make me regret! Hallelujah!!!

Supposedly the plan was about two weeks ago. all of us planned to make a trip down to KL for assignment. Our assignment is to interview some kinda artist. But plan was canceled due to some reasons. But another coursemate of I called me up to resume the plan that we planned earlier. So, it was a seriously spontaneous trip!!! Omgness! I still can't believe wey!!

I hopped into the bus at 7.30pm yesterday and I got into the bus on 3.30pm this afternoon. And voila!! I'm back in the island again!! Goshhh....

To conclude the interview that Idid, AWESOME!! Dato' Dr Johari Salleh is the king of music arranger!! Omgness!! I really salute him weyhh!!! His works were just simply amazing!!! He's a really friendly guy who smiles alot and the way he described his past, I just love it! :)

I'm so relieved that i've done the interview. Now, comes the difficult part la!! I'm gonna finish up the 20 pages of report about this interview!!! *cross your fingers*! :)

Ouh yea!! I forgot to tell you guys!! I've finally got my very own cello. The best sound i've heard so far!! :). That thing cost daddy 1.5k. *I promise you that i'll learn well*!!

play for one more week and i'm gonna start studying edi! :)

till then. :)

ps : picturesofmuaandjoharisallehwillbeupnextpost! :)

Weeeee~~~

2011-01-18T21:34:00.002+08:00

Grrrr!!!! My mood superbly happy till now! Omgness!!!! Haha.....

reason #1 : I've finally got a good cello teacher!! Omg!!

reason #2 : I've finally got my very own CELLO!! U heard me!!! My very own CELLO!!!!!! XD

reason #3 : I've finally found the headphone bro bought from Japan!! Weee~~ (the one he bought rosak few years ago)!

reason #4 : I've run 5 rounds non-stop!! woots!! Come break my record!! :)

reason #5 : Aku dapat discount daripada saman! From rm50 to rm20! *I should be happy for this reason, right?

reason #6 : Am finally gonna meet daddy, mummy, sis and grandma next 2 weeks! I miss them, and that's like, VERY MUCH!! :)

reason #7 : Tomorrow's my very first CELLO lesson at 2.30pm! *shake shake shake*

Hmm... Me actually found miss ong(cello teacher)'s house by myself! haha.... so happy weyh!!! Cuz I cari by my own ma! haha.... crazily happy today! IDK WHY!!! Omgness!!!! me called daddy about the cello just now. He said, where r u going to put ur cello? Then I was like.... errrr.... idk!!! haha....

weeee~~~~ Till then. :)

sometimes

2011-01-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

mood : The climb, by miley cyrus.

Sometimes, I just felt so helpless when I see close friends around me fall sick. I just can't do anything about it. sighh.... mua felt so helpless. sigh... All I can do is pray. pray for their recovery. Helpless, this is one of the word that motivates me to study medicine last time. I'd always want to find solution for something. But now, it seems like I can't do anything more.

Stay strong. *jia you*

till then. :(

16-01-11

2011-01-16T22:51:00.003+08:00

Omgness!! We meet him like in person again!!! He walked passed by J&co. while me and kah hui were having ice cream yogurt! omgness!!! me actually followed him until outside weyh.... So regret didn't call him for the first time. But who knows that he walked back to the restaurant again!!! This time I dah pandai!! I panggil Bobby twice then he turn back!! Omgness!!!! He actually turn his head back and look for us!! haha...

He asked for our names again!! Omgness!! Again!!! He ASKED FOR OUR NAME!!! And the best part is, He sat down and had a quick chat with us!!! Omgness!!! Extreme happiness!!! Haha... crazy right?? He's like an international pianist! I memang salute him! :)

Ouh yea, Did I meantion that he reached out his hand and shake our hands? haha.... He said he'll come back and perform again! Weee~~~

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Done with the extreme happy part, now with the sad part pulak. ishhh...

someone over there lost something that I bought. If you remember what I said to you earlier, you should have taken good care of it. I've once told you that whatever things that I buy, It means something to me. To someone there, Remember the perfume story that I told you the other day?? sighh~

To someone, I'm extremely sad weyh. I've never get the chance to wear it. Now, U've lost it. sighh... its not the matter of money, its the matter of the "meaning" of getting it. sighh...

Btw, The person that we met was BOBBY CHEN!!!! weee~~~

till then.

The thing

2011-01-16T10:25:00.004+08:00

That thing actually bothered me for a year?? I told myself to let down, but I can't for the past couple of months. Until I know that person wasn't mine anymore, I realise that things had changed. yeap, I am no longer his girl and he's no longer mine.

Half a year since I last contacted him and ask for forgiveness. He accepted the apology and we started talking to each other ever since. But both of us realize that, things weren't the same anymore. Friends, that's the best we can be. Both of us can't seem to forget what we've done.

I am certainly happy that things have settled now. Extremely happy larh weyh!!! *shake shake shake*

ps : practice practice practice! Omgness!

Bobby C's recital @ penang.

2011-01-15T21:44:00.003+08:00

Superbly nice piano recital done by Bobby like, again? omgess!! He's just the best. He's soooo polite! omgness!! We went to get his signature and he asked for my name!! omg omg!! He wrote,

Dear Catherine, Good for you to come, bobby.

He should have written "LOVE BOBBY"!!

Memang aku faint selalu when he asked for my name! haha.... *crazy*. Well, He's just too good for me to describe here. I love his Lizst's piece soo much! Tho Hayden's piece was a little bit boring. But, His Schubert and Lizst were tooooo goood!!! weee~~ 50 bucks memang worth it man!!!!

Grrrr.... too bad, I can't really get more pictures. sighh... maklumlah... camera cacat aku. ishhh.... *slap*

Till then. Me gotto practice piano edi.

:(

2011-01-13T23:48:00.002+08:00

Can't you guys just say : oh my god! That's a really awesome course!!

GRrrrrrr..... Am superbly down and sad whenever people change their reaction after asking me what course I take.

At least make up my day by saying, That's AWESOME!!!!

emphasize lastly!!! There's a course called music course in USM!!!!!! Grrrrrr......

till then!!!!!!!!!

Life

2011-01-13T22:17:00.004+08:00

Mua had quite a long conversation with lecturer today during keyboard class. Lecturer said she didn't sleep well because she's been thinking of some things that bothered her. So mua asked her what is that thingy. She said is life. yup, Life.

Life is short, appreciate it.

me felt kinda insulted when people all around usm looked down towards music students. sighh... Sad sial. Whenever I say I'm doing music course, their facial expression would change. seriously, CHANGE! sighh... sad, right??

13th of january, the first day of 2011, We meet up again. Well, its a total different feeling after not seeing you for 2 weeks. Felt awkward , right? Hmm.... its definitely a nice chat with you after so long. :)

This is Hiroshima. :). The place kena bombed during Ww2. *practically got it from sis' camera cuz she went there*

I guess I have to start studying already. I've got quite a number of things to cover. Its gonna be the fourth week soon! Omgness! Time flies.....

Till then.

Decision made. :)

2011-01-11T23:40:00.002+08:00

I'll be having 4 months break starting from May 2011 onwards. Decision made by myself after so many days of thinking what should I do during that 4 months.

Mua will be staying in Penang due to some reasons.

Reason #1 : I wanna spend time with grandaunt here.

Reason #2 : Piano lesson! I cannot afford to miss 4 months' lesson! kan?

Reason #3 : Theory class! Grrrr... ><'

Reason #4 : Explore Penang?? idk yet!! :)

The main reason I stay in Penang is my grandaunt. It's been years since I last saw her. I was shocked to see her lose so much weight after battling with her sickness. My heart ached whenever I see her. She can't sleep well, she can't eat well and she can't really remember everyone. hmmm..... That's the main reason I wanna stay in penang. cannot afford to lose anyone kut? hmmmm....

I appreciate each and everyone around me these days. Mua don't wanna do stuffs that I'll regret. so, forgive and forget. :)

ouh yea, me just done writing love story's chorus part. That thing actually took me an hour to finish!! omgness!! and that's only 8 bars?? ehhh... with perfection, ok? I write and draw with ruler! Muahaha..... I like things to be neat. :)

till then. :)

Read Read Read!!!!

2011-01-11T17:40:00.002+08:00

I've been working my ass off for sight reading, but still, no changes. I wanna give up, but I can't. I've been trying so hard to let myself improve, but still, I couldn't see any improvements. sighh...

Mua went for piano class and I just felt so useless playing Nocturne. :(. Mua felt shoooo sad cuz I felt like Mr. __ don't really like me as his student.

Dear Lord, please guide me. Please help me. :'(

10.01.11

2011-01-10T21:53:00.002+08:00

我今天想卸下面具

承认自己有多脆弱

我欺骗了自己也欺骗了身边的人

说穿了我只是害怕面对

我接受不了所有的现实

逞强太久了

真的很累

发现自己已经一段时间没有哭了

忘记怎么哭的时候

才发现眼泪有多珍贵

今天倒数前的几个小时我颤抖了好久

我害怕听见欢呼声我害怕看见烟火

曾经在我以为最美丽的日子里我倒数寂寞

我一直告诉自己说这一天我要冷静地度过

心跳的频率撒不了谎我才坦然接受我其实并不平安

回顾这一年只能以忐忑来形容

因为在我决定向前走的同时我还一直回首从前

我怀念的东西其实容不下我

而我却一直留恋在记忆里

框住了自己

我以为自我催眠能够帮助一些什么

催眠自己要坚强要一直微笑要很阳光

太强烈了反而弄巧反拙

情绪好像干枯了

伤害是痛的所以我一直都不想伤害别人

或许很多时候我错过了对我不错的人

渐渐少联络的或是已经找到女朋友的

我都真心的感谢

只是感觉不在我给不了什么

我不能自私的把另一个人想象成他

也不能背叛自己的心

利用另一个人来忘记他

因为到最后故事里可能会出现另一个我

在我真正忘记他之前

我想还我自己自由

三年期限不和人类谈恋爱

疗伤最多就只能三年

我有太多还没有实现的梦想

就利用这三年我想自己一个人一一把它们完成.

hmm... Me saw this post from a friend of mine. Touching yet nice, right? Tho It took me quite some time to figure out what does it mean. hmmm.... She's a strong yet independent girl, I seriously respect her! :)

Tuesday, tomorrow!! Omgness! Takut sial. tomorrow's the day AGAIN.... Aural again!! Grrrr ><. May God bless me!

{onethingthatIgottoknowis,practicedoesn'tmakeperfectresult.}

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2011-01-09T19:20:00.004+08:00

It took me half an hour to think of the title. In the end, I couldn't think of one. ><'. Me just got back from the MPO trip with the whole USM music department's students. Indeed, It was a nice one! Mua had lotsa fun with coursemates! :)

Me had a little breakdown in the bus while mua was otw back to Penang. Some stuff just passed by my mind and I just broke down into tears. It wasn't because of personal stuff like relationship anymore.

This matter had been my problem ever since I got into USM. Yeah, I brought this matter along with me. :(. Am not stating what is it here. Its been half a year.

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SHE taught me alot before she went away just like that. I didn't know that she was diagnosed with cancer until months before she passed away. She was the one who unites our family together no matter what. She was the one who somehow brought me up.

One phrase that I'd never forget until today. She taught me this phrase when she see me gasping for air when I swim. She says, don't stop halfway and gasp for air, swim till the end when u touched the wall, Don't stop! So, whenever i'm tired and gasping for air, she's the one I thought of. Never will I give up swimming.

I still can remember how she suffered from having cancer. She relied on the machine day and night. She lost her weight and her fierce look day by day. BTW, she was a fierce looking lady at the outside, but she's soft in the inside. Everyday she battled through the pain along with aunts and granduncle.

Her death. I was the first one in the family to know. I was the one who answered the call with sobbing sound on the phone. At that very moment, I blamed Doctor for not treating her well, I blamed Jesus for not granting my prayers. It was sad. So sad, until today I still can feel the lost.

"Stairway To Heaven". This is the song that she asked me to find for her before she was diagnosed with cancer. I couldn't find it until a couple of months after she departs.

Me, really learn a lot from her. sorry for the long windy post here, this is just my mood today. :(

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I am glad to have a bunch of friends here that I could turn to. I am glad that I've known Elaine. She's good at comforting people. Thanks to her, I felt good after confessing what had been tensing me up lately.

Aural class is the only class where all 12 of us don't wanna face. Seriously, The way Ms Lena looked at us seems like wanna kill us weyh! Anyhow, We still have to go through the pain together. Wanna take music course in the future, THINK TWICE!!

I am done for today.

foryouwhoisreadingthis,ihopetoseeusomedayinthisweek.itsbeenawhile.

The one.

2011-01-06T16:36:00.003+08:00

He got me this from Genting. He has one in black colour. I wear this everyday, yea, seriously, everyday. Mua wear this everyday cuz it helps me throughout the day. It makes my day by reading the verse on it.

The verse :

"Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be your name, your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as in Heaven. Give us to do your aily bread. Forgive our sins as we forgive those who sin against us. Lead us not in temptation but deliver us from evil. For the Kingdom, the power and the Glory are yours now and Forever. Amen. Matthew 6:9-16

Lead us not in temptation but deliver us from evil. I personally like this phrase. This phrase makes me think of all the consequences of the things I do.

Thanks for buying me this. I really appreciate this!!

Mua and coursemates, omgness! Non-stop happiness!!! Laughter has always been with us whenever all of us are together. Praise God. Together we face the pressure, together we face the sadness, together we had a great time!!

The trip to KL is tomorrow! Me kinda excited tho!!! Hopefully everything turns out well!!! God bless me!!

ifyou'rereadingthis,remembertowearthenecklaceIgaveyou.

I need exercise!

2011-01-03T19:16:00.002+08:00

That's for sure! Burn all the fats off!! Me, officially not driving for classes anymore!!

Reason #1 : Walking is good for health

Reason#2 : Breath in O2 is seriously good for us!!

Reason#3 : Petrol nowadays expensive weyhhh!!!!

Reason #4 : Listen properly here.... I need to shed off the fats in me!!!! Grrr!!!!!!

Omgness!! Can you believe that, some stuff that happened to me last few days actually disturbed my emotion? And that's like for the very first time I couldn't control those kinda feelings. DAMN!!!

Sad factor #1 : those ppl, you just felt like slapping them again and again! You know who i meant, right??

Sad factor #2 : I've gained weight!!

Sad factor #3 : Aural class every Tuesday just makes me felt like suiciding!

Sad factor #4 : I can't eat chocos like, everyday, cuz mua need to be on diet!!

Sad factor #5 : I HATE you!!!!! Omgness!! I tak suka the way YOU treat me!!!! Like I'm a sinner falling in LOVE with YOU!! Yes!! I am saying out loud!! I just don't like it!!!!!! :'(

Sad Factor #6 : I've been FOOLED! :'(

Ifyou'rereadingthis,Ijustwannaaskyoutothinkofwhati'vedoneforyou.plsdon'ttreatmelikethisanymore.

3.1.11

2011-01-02T23:34:00.004+08:00

Everything's gonna start tomorrow! Scare sial!!! Omgness! To all who are heading to school tomorrow, lotsa lucks!! Jia you!! C'mon! We can do it! Music students are not to be looked down! We too have our potential!!

Kawai, eh?? Primary school children in Japan! :))

ps : Me don't wanna talk with u edi!

Breath!

2011-01-02T13:32:00.002+08:00

Hello Twenty Eleven!! It wasn't a great start for me yesterday. Heard some rumors saying about things that I don't like from a close friend of mine. Sigh...

Can't you just listen and forget what you've heard? Please don't go spread nonsense! I'm kinda tired of you talking about stuff like this. You haven't been changing ever since the day I know you. gosh.. I'm not complaining or what. I just hope that You, can change just a little bit. FML??

Me now, feeling fireworks around my head. So many things going through my mind now.

Me, not in a mood of everything now. I'm feeling sad. Mua wanna SCREAM out loud!! As loud as I can!! But, where?? I wanna cry, cry as much as I can!! But, where's the shoulder I need? Dear Lord, do tell me what to do.

Class is gonna start tomorrow. Time table, lecturers and classes are different. Totally different atmosphere to learn now. I am scare. sigh~

YOU, changed me. Whenever I am scare, YOU asked me to be strong instead of coming to see me and calm me down. When I am down, and come to complaint infront of you, YOU asked me to stay positive.

I can't do things all by myself. I am just a normal girl who needs someone beside me whenever I needed them. I wish I could just turn things back where I don't know who YOU are. Things are so complicated now.

I am TIRED. I just need someone to unburden them.

我真的很累!!:'(

2nd Semester.

2010-12-28T15:25:00.004+08:00

Yeah, that's it. Started 2nd semester and I'm facing the most crucial part of the entire course. Hell yeah I'm still in Japan mood! goshh.... I'm still yet to done with those Japan stories wey... omgness!! Lotsa things to tell. And I've decided not to describe it here. Wanna know more about it? Ask me personally! haha...

Why Music? That's what Ms Lena asked today. The "garang-est" Lecturer of the whole music department. yeah, right! haha.... At first, I don't believe what senior that us that how fierce she is until this morning! omgness~~ I can really feel the pressure and the "fierce-ness". She don't smile in the class and the words she used, SARCASTIC, man! The Questions she asked this morning made me think back right before I choose this course. Why come to degree just to be a teacher? yeap... that's what running in my mind right now! sigh~

Me myself wanted study medicine so much till everyone back in hometown knows that I'm heading towards that direction. Until I told them that I choose music as my future career, all came asking WHY?! Studying Medicine was my dream. I study so hard day and night, 8hours a day(TRUE WEYH) just to hit the goal. But, too bad, I was lead to do music by Him. I know that He got another plan for me. So, I just walked under His guidance. I take it as a challenge from Him. :)

Mua was sooo sad for a couple of months after I know that I couldn't enter a Medicine Uni due to some reasons. Mua practically blamed Him for not guiding me well. sighh....

Fine, Mua know things can't turn back now. What I hope now is, do well in my second semester! *God bless mua*

How I miss my cookie monster!! weee~~ I miss you! *hug*

Japan, 日本. 2

2010-12-21T00:22:00.005+08:00

Japan, no doubt is a really organized country. Their bus/ Train services are always on time. If your ticket is at 7.59am, the bus/train seriously, I mean really arrives before 7.59am and starts the journey at 7.59am SHARP! One thing that makes me curious is that, why instead of 8am, they make it at 7.59am?? hmm... weird huh??

Japan? I personally like Osaka,Kyoto and other cities except Tokyo. Well, the main reason is because Tokyo people are much more realistic. Realistic as in they're much more self-centered. The people there don't really give a hoot to what you do or what you're experiencing. I think that's life over there! I could really feel the "stress" and rush of time in their blood. Well, I think Tokyo is a big city where its more to entertainment such as theater and high fashion street.

Gosh, I've got lotsa things to tell over here. Don't think I can finish them in one post!!

Okay, let's start with the people in Tokyo, *again*. Mua got the chance to experience standing in a crowd of thousands of people crossing the road! And I'm proud to say that I've crossed Shibuya's road with thousands of people!! weeee~~~~ The World's Famous crossing with big screen TV! omgness!!!! once the light turns green which indicates WALK, people started walking. omgness!! imagine one whole bunch of ants walking together.

In Tokyo, you can never see "lonely" roads. Cuz places are crowded with people! omg!! Even the subway is crowded with people during peak hours. I've seen people SQUEEZE themselves into the train. Its totally different from KL's KTM! Totally different I swear! lol....

I'm sure you've heard of UNIQLO. The one and only one shop in MALAYSIA! Malaysian actually lined up for HOURS just to get a pair of jeans or shirt. But, in japan, UNIQLO is like everywhere! omg... Ginza street, Shinjuku street, Shibuya and there's one at Narita airport. Speaking about Narita airport, the security guards there seriously do their work. they check from the tip of ur head to the bottom of ur foot. woots!!Back to UNIQLO, I entered Ginza's and Shinjuku's. Mua wanted to get smth, but end up didn't get anything, because you know why? Its all winter clothes. ewww....

Tokyo, nice to visit. But, seriously not nice to stay. :)

Okay, I think i'm done with Tokyo. stay tune for my next post about Japanese culture. :)

Pictures, Next post. :)

Japan, 日本.

2010-12-17T00:10:00.008+08:00

Behold, the Sneak preview of Japan trip! The place that I definitely would go again in the future!

Date : 7th till 15th December 2010.

Places : Osaka, Kyoto & Tokyo.

The superb coldness that I've never experience before in my life. Imagine when you stand infront of the air-cond with the temperature of 10 degrees. omg... Mua shivered all the way when I was walking on the streets of Japan. But yeah, It was a memorable trip! The nicest I've been so far. :)

See the tree, kesian kan? Too cold till "shed" off all the leaves! LOL....

Vending machines! I love them till max! Almost all kinds of snacks you can find! OMGNESS!

Cute sial! Too cute that I begged mummy to buy me a cookie monster plush! weee~

Ps : More Pictures coming up soon enough! *hopefully before school starts*

Toldyaissneakpreview! haha......

What do u think?

2010-12-04T22:50:00.001+08:00

Guys think differently from girls?

Girls think too much??

December

2010-12-04T17:59:00.002+08:00

yeah, its December already. gosh... time flies, eh? In just a blink of eye, we're going to wave goodbye to 2010 and say hello to 2011! Ouh yeah, its christmas month, peeps! The month that I've been waiting for, likee... ages?

Yeah, Christmas! Full of joy and tears as well. Christmas trees all over which makes my day full of enlightment whenever I see them around! Plush toys which are on sale right now, they're so damn cute!! omg!! So FLUFFY that I can die!!! omg omg omg!!!

Things to do #1, #2 and #3 are done. Now, I'm waiting for the momento to go! wee... Can't wait to go. The trip that i've been waiting for years! Hell yea!! Years!! Planned that for like years ago, and finally i've got the chance to go. Praise Lord. :)

BTW, My sony camera is officially cacat already. ishhh.... I cannot get a new one. Cuz everything's so expensive now. ewwww.... I wish that I could go and earn some money outside and buy it myself. :(

Can't wait for christmas celebration this year and new year countdown. weeee~~

till then, december pictures are coming up end of this month. yipee!!!

weeee...

2010-11-28T22:38:00.021+08:00

Done with dad's annual concert. gosh... LETHARGIC , that's the only word i can describe. Mess all over when the event started at 1pm. gosh.... parents came and register, students ran here and there and most of all, the sound of crying all over the hall. omgness...

I ran all over the hall with my new pair of heels to grab those kids to line up for their performances. omg... can u imagine me on heels running here and there for lykeee 4 hours?! i mean it, 4 hours. gosh...

I'm back home for like 4 days already and I haven't get a chance to mee

t my friends yet. ewwww... No time! And They're so far away from me. and and and Baby myvi is not here. too bad... I don't have transport to go there.

pictures of the day! :)

The Heels that kills me.

Imagine me running with this pair of heels todayh.

The face after all the hard work.

The ultimate dad and I.

The one and only sis with mua.

Weee... Balloons all over!!!

Giving out balloons!

Graduation. :)

Finally, the best chocolate mint cake from awana. :)

Everything's done within 4 hours. gosh.... Thank god that everything's done now.

Next thing on the list :

#1 : send sis off to Japan.

#2 : Get myself a sweater.

#3 : Tunggu pergi Tokyo!

#4 : I can't wait for christmas.

#5 : more to come. LOL....

ps : I don't feel safe.

Happy Belated birhday Genie. :P

2010-11-24T02:37:00.003+08:00

Sorry for celebrating late with you cuz.. u know la.. exam! haha... I had a great day with you just now. And It's always hard to say good bye. boo~~

Photos of him. Coming up When I'm back home tmrw. Its gonna be a lonngggg day for me tomorrow! Gonna wake up at 6am, and its like 3am now! omg!! I can't imagine how am i gonna survive with only 3 hours sleep. @@....anway, I'm gonna wake up early cuz I've gotto unscrew my piano with the help of Siva!! wuuhuu~ He's just my hero!!

Ouh yea, his birthday pressie?? A guitar capo!! haha... Dunlop guitar capo!!

okay, I'm so lazy and tired to write long post now. I promise that I'd write a longer one with PICTURES tmrw! till then. :)

Sorry

2010-11-20T23:51:00.002+08:00

Sorry. That's what i'm saying.

Orientation week and first few weeks of school here in uni were the best time in my life. yeah, I met new friends that changed me alot.

I know that I'm a really straight forwarded person. Sorry that I've offended you in anyway. The way I say or the way I did. Big sorry and yeah big sorry.

sorry. Cuz I don't wanna be the regretted one. I cherish everyone here and I try to blend with everyone. I tried to change the way I talk. I did tried very hard. And I tried to be silence. But everytime when i'm in a silence mood, everyone would come and ask, " why so emo"?

The accident that took my friend's sis' life, changed me. Changed me, to say whatever is inside my heart. The person I like, I told. The person that hates me, I ask them why. So please, do forgive me and I try to do the best i can to blend in. cuz its difficult to live in a one person's world.

you, you, you and everyone out there, I'm SORRY. *bow* I don't wanna loose any moments with everyone here. I'm sorry for the way I did nor talk. I truely am.

The way everyone talks about me, I was hurt. Truely, I was hurt and IDK what to do.

So, yeah. Tell me what I did so that i can change. Sorry that I wasn't sensitive enough to care people's feelings.

Again, I don't wanna be the regretted one. I don't wanna miss a chance to say that I cherish u guys. I really appreciate that I've known everyone here.

Wrote this with my heart. *

sakit.

2010-11-20T21:58:00.002+08:00

Gastric came to me just right after I went for swimming in the evening. Gosh... Was quite some time back since i last got gastric. Cuz I've been eating quite alot these days. *fat* OMG!!

Mua was kinda moody today cuz of some incident that happened through social network thingy. Well, everyone said, forget about it and look forward. That's the only thing I can do. Focus on my last paper and ciao!! I can't wait to go home. Seriously am kinda excited for this holiday!

Human relationship in girl's world?? One word, COMPLICATED. Gossips, exaggeration and back stabbers are everywhere. I just hope I could go through this tough time and stay strong no matter what people say.

IGNORE, that's the word that I've learnt here. They asked me to IGNORE whatever they say. So, yeah, I will try to IGNORE what they say and try to move forward and FOCUS!!

For anyone out there that supports me, THANKS. For anyone out there that lend me their ears, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

For anyone out there that is angry or hates me, I'M SORRY.

Wanted to write more here, but under certain reasons/circumstances, I'm not allow to elaborate here. till then.

IMY

you know what?

2010-11-20T10:01:00.003+08:00

Its a sin to wear branded stuff in university. That's it. I don't wanna elaborate more.

Music history

2010-11-19T18:20:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I've been hitting this subject ever since this morning and i'm still in Renaissance period. Sad huh?? Cuz i've gotto do so much research so that I won't miss any part of it. Because of this paper on the 23rd, I missed Singing-K with seniors! garhhh!! I sooo wanna go! CUZ its been so long since i last stepped into a Karaoke box! Brandon buuuuu!!!! I miss Red Box in GARDENS so much!!

Exam is coming to the end and holidays is coming. Excited and at the same time sad. Cuz I'll be leaving here and won't be seeing ____ for a month? goshh.. It seems short but, for me, its long!! I'll be flying on the 7th and only will be back a week later.

garhh.. I've gotto continue with my renaissance already!!! I'mmmmm wayyyyy to slow!! OMG!!

IMY

Love story

2010-11-19T00:18:00.002+08:00

Tho its a really old old old old song, but still "Love story" is my favourite song after "Because of you". These two songs made inspires me and they're the songs that made my day. :)

We were both young, when I first saw you.
I close my eyes and the flashback starts-
I'm standing there, on a balcony in summer air.

I see the lights; see the party, the ball gowns.
I see you make your way through the crowd-
You say hello, little did I know...

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles-
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet"-
And I was crying on the staircase-
begging you, "Please don't go..."
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess,
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.

So I sneak out to the garden to see you.
We keep quiet, because we're dead if they knew-
So close your eyes... escape this town for a little while.
Oh, Oh.

Cause you were Romeo - I was a scarlet letter,
And my daddy said "stay away from Juliet" -
but you were everything to me-
I was begging you, "Please don't go"
And I said...

Romeo take me somewhere, we can be alone.
I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes-

Romeo save me, they're trying to tell me how to feel.
This love is difficult, but it's real.
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess.
It's a love story, baby, just say yes.
Oh, Oh.

I got tired of waiting.
Wondering if you were ever coming around.
My faith in you was fading-
When I met you on the outskirts of town.
And I said...

Romeo save me, I've been feeling so alone.
I keep waiting, for you but you never come.
Is this in my head, I don't know what to think-
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said...

Marry me Juliet, you'll never have to be alone.
I love you, and that's all I really know.
I talked to your dad -- go pick out a white dress
It's a love story, baby just say... yes.
Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh, Oh.

'cause we were both young when I first saw you

IMY. :'(

Screwed.

2010-11-18T12:31:00.003+08:00

Done with practical exam just now. A big relieve for me and at the same time a big disappointment. sigh~ I did so badly at the harmonization and improvisation part. omg... Dr yumi didn't commented on it, but i can feel the "ugliness" of the piece that I produced. :'(

Ehh... sad sial!! omg!!!

one last paper on the 23rd and i'll be free from everything. MUSIC HISTORY!!! garhh... I can't wait for holiday. Will be flying of on the 7th! I can't wait!! :)

IMY

2nd post in a day.

2010-11-16T22:57:00.002+08:00

Yeah, I wanna write!! I just wanna write cuz i feel like writing! haha.... Mua went out with seniors for dinner at Kim Gary just now. Then they went to this game station to hit the drums. It looks fun tho, but i didn't try cuz i think i'm gonna score the lowest if i try. haha..

Well, it was a really nice dinner cuz its been a long time since i ate cheese!! garhh.. how i miss cheese bake rice at Kim Gary. But I ordered baked cheese Spaghetti just now. It was awesome! :)

We had a little talk about motorist and it makes me think of my friend's sister who just passed away last week. Sighh... He and I are quite close with each other where we contacted each other like, always?

The other day, I sent a text, asking how's his life. Then only I know that his sister got into a very serious accident. I prayed for her recovery, but too bad, She couldn't survive the second operation. I was shocked to see the wall post. Everyone's saying RIP at her wall. I called him immediately right after I saw those post. And yeah, its true that he just lost her.

Regretted of not saying I LOVE YOU always in his life to his sister. I hereby wanna urge everyone outside, appreciate each and everyone of ur friends outside there. I LOVE YOU is just three simple words that need to be expressed out. Don't just live inside ur own world without knowing what's happening outside.

Live life, love life, love your family love your friends. :)

till then.

IMY

Dear me.

2010-11-16T17:37:00.002+08:00

I tak tahan wanna write this after reading my friend's blog. I just wanna keep my friends update. :)

Done recital and its the most scariest thing to do even tho I played with a partner. Thank God there's no mistakes in between!! omg.... Hands shaked all the way from the begining till the end! It was a great experience tho. :)

Watching one of the seniors playing cello accompanied by piano makes me love cello even more. I wonder when can i get my very own cello? gosh.. I've been waiting for months.

Two days later i'll be facing practical exam. Yet to start harmonizing and improvising! Goshhh.... Left only a day to do it! omg!!

I had Drama & Theatre exam this morning. The place that i sat was right the the side of the hall. Lucky me i got that place. Cuz it wasn't that cold there.

Will be going to a place that i've been logging to go with family ever since! Garhh... I can't wait to go there! I'm soooo getting a new camera and winter clothes!! omg!! Can't wait for it!

till then.

IMY.

:)

2010-11-05T18:12:00.002+08:00

Someone changed my point of view about human relationship and life in a night. 3 hours talk, and voila!

2 ears and a mouth. Should have listen more rather than talk. That's what I've learn here.

The whole terrible incident that happened here, matures me. Lord Guided me throughout this path. Even though the process that I might going to go is tough, but still there are people who supports me. They are there for me to cry, shout and laugh on together.

cry through the phone and tell my friend how miserable I am doesn't help. Cuz this is the problem that I'm going to solve myself.

Change? Yeah, I will. The way I speak, the way I talk the way I'm gonna face everyone here and there.

Relationship, tough yet difficult, huh?? Its a never ending story for everyone. Cuz each and everyone grows from that matter.

sad? yeah, I am. Smile and joyful r always on my face cuz i've gotto face so many things in my life. I cannot hang a "hated" face and show my temper all over, isn't? so yea... deep inside my heart, sorrow.

couldn't deny that I hate gossips. Cuz it changes people's perspective upon smth. I'm hereby, not gonna talk about anything about anyone and anywhere!

I just feel like writing out what I feel now. no offense and I don't mean to hurt anyone.

Thanks to each and everyone out there that were there for me when i'm superbly moody and down. Thanks to you guys out there that made my day.

till then, I'm not gonna blog here until end of sem. :)

stress!!

2010-11-04T22:06:00.000+08:00

I'm officially stress because i only got one book to read. OMG!

second day of the second last month of the year!

2010-11-02T13:46:00.002+08:00

yeap... second day of November, peeps.

Woke up so earl today cuz I can barely sleep last night. I was soo excited about the practical I had this morning. Thank God that it turned out well this morning. Well done, good job and good are the words that came out from Dr. Jason's mouth!! Omg... can u believe it? Am seriously happy about it!! :) tho i've got a lil' pitching prob!! haha...

I love the weather here in penang nowadays. Its not too cold nor not too warm. *ngam ngam*!! lol... I'm starting to revise my work from today onwards!! Beethoven's OP. 79 is still in the process. Hopefully I can play all 5 pages with perfect rhythm and correct notes before exam!! @@

ps : IMY.

1.11.10

2010-11-01T23:28:00.002+08:00

first of November, peeps!! I think I've utilized today with much purpose.

1. Went to dad's kindergarten and did some experiments.
2. Test drive Toyota Prius ( super likey this car )
3. travel alone to come back to penang.

lastly, I'm superb tired!! Tomorrow's the big day for me and part of my course mates. We'll be teaching at the kindergarten in USM. 20percent weyyy... I've gotto do it with just one shot!! Keep your fingers cross for me!! :)))

FYI, the plane journey was kinda rough. The pilot almost made me threw up in the plane. The landing was... wayyyyyy to rough... luckily tak vomit inside the plane la.. ouhh yea... one more thing... I was sooo lucky enough that my gate at KLIA was just outside. I just need to walk a small distance to reach my gate when I landed at KLIA. Thank god. :)

Books?? belum sentuh lagi. I'm gonna use the time given this week which means tomorrow, to study study and study!! ouh yea, I've gotto practice my op 79 too!! :)

Wish me luck. till then. :)

succeeded :)

2010-10-28T00:15:00.002+08:00

omg-ness!!! I'm sooo hype nw cuz Prof. Razif's class for 1st yr 1st sem is finally over! I mean!! Thank god for everything!! I love it!! I love it!! haha....

He actually came to me after solo performance infront of my course mates and complimented me on my bass playing. "I think you should stick with bass because there was some interesting bass that you played just now*. Thank you, God. I prayed so hard every night just to get this exam done! omg... prayer paid? yes for sure!! :)))

Tho my fingers are all full with scars now, but its worth it after practicing for like everyday!! haha..

Last week of 1st sem.

2010-10-25T20:51:00.002+08:00

Last week of first semester of the whole course. Supposedly to be free. But it turns out to be busy. yeah.... busy!! I'm having ensemble exam this coming wednesday and i'll be playing bass of course. hopefully I'll hit the correct notes and nothing bad happens!! OMG!!

I started practicing Sonatine by Beethoven today. It turns out to be much more easier than I thought. Thanks to Mr Raymond aka my piano teacher's guidance. :) Am gonna master that song in a few weeks time before exam!! YAY!!

Short post ends fast. *cheers*

The Tawau Project

2010-10-22T09:31:00.002+08:00

Phew! Finally everything's done and no more late night singing anymore! lol..... It was indeed a fun yet great concert held in usm last night. I had fun and of course pictures are on their way. I didn't take my camera cuz my camera dah cacat. *hints for Christmas present* lol.....

Cute guys! okay.... they're all over in the hall and back stage! omg!!! I memang go there and cuci mata one la. haha... cuz arts school don't have any cute guys. ehem*

One of the lead singer who's from Taiwan was the spotlight of the event. lol.. He's cute, tall and handsome. AND AND AND he's AVAILABLE!! Rumors said that he just broke up with his China girl. awww..... His voice... memang romantic sial when he sings! omg@@.. really cannot stand!! *faint*

Back to singing.... There's a guy who plays the grand piano like nobody's business. I admit that he's really good at piano. Too bad, he's not cute. haha.. but he's DAMN good at gliding the grand. memang *faint* when he glides!! haha....

ouhh ouhh.. did i mention that i met a guy. ok.. a cute little guy?? haha... I posted pictures on fb. I just asked him to take pictures with me randomly. I was superb shy tat time. omg!! Superb happy too!! and and and... He's from math school!! omg... math weyh!!! cute + brainy = my type!!

Now only I know that jazz band ada cute guys all over! omg... so regret that I didn't join jazz band earlier! haha....

till then. :)

ps : more picture otw!! :)))

A day with 3rd year seniors.

2010-10-16T21:57:00.002+08:00

Guess what?! I went out for almost 7 hours to prangin mall and komtar with my seniors. I had lotsa fun with them. One thing that i didn't know was, they were actually so friendly and fun to be with. lol...

7 hours was worth it. Cuz I threw everything at the back of my mind. Assignments, presentations and revisionS!! omg!! I'm soo staying up late tonight. plus, I've got to laugh my head of with them. haha...

one particular question that everyone around me asked nowadays. "what happened between u two". yeah.... I admit. There's a gap between me and someone whom i'm gonna talk here. I feel sad about this incident. I was kinda alone all these while. I was so sad cuz i've got no one to talk to about what's happening in my mind. I was so sad that I've lost this friend.

Eli is the only one that I talked to about this matter. I cried everytime I talked about this matter. Cuz it really breaks my heart.

you know what I miss the most? I miss the laugh!! I wanna be crazy again! I don't wanna be the one who faces books and plays piano every moment!! I don't wanna be the one who gets isolated!!!

I cried cuz I can't stand the pressure!! I blamed myself because of this.

Thanks seniors for the one day trip. I really had lotsa fun except for the looking for clothes part. haha...

choir

2010-10-15T22:23:00.002+08:00

lol... I had a great time singing in choir for our next project which will fall on next Thursday night. The project is called The Tawau Project which is a charity concert where jazz band and other performances will be held! aww... I look forward for that weyh!

It's fun singing in choir where we sing and dance together in group! haha... I had lotsa fun just now during the practice! Even the prof. was having fun!

My seniors are the nicest people to talk to! LOL.... I love talking with them. haha... FUN is the only word that I could describe!!!

Am soooo looking forward for next week's performance.

ouhh yea, Dr Yumi, my keyboard class leturer told me that I can enter recital. She say for those who didn't make it or didn't enter projek seni can perform one song either in memory or with score on stage. I was shocked and of course happy to hear that. I hope I could make this through! Dr Yumi said, U must enter! haha... This phrase pushes me! :))

Btw, My cello is not here yet. supposedly I can get it by tomorrow. but, too bad the cello is there, but without the bow. so... tak boleh ambik la. sigh... I've gotto wait for another few more days. apala...

hmmm

2010-10-13T19:38:00.001+08:00

He called and he told me that he's coming to penang this weekend. But, I might be going home cuz my dad is coming this friday. damn... idk i wanna go home or not. miserable sial!! :(

She's my B-I-A-T-C-H!

2010-10-12T20:40:00.012+08:00

mood : sedih yang teramat2(is this even a word?)

I miss her so much ever since we were apart last two years. She left to KL for law degree. We meet at least once a year. Cuz both of us were so busy with our stuff. She's my babe.... I miss talking and crapping with her. We always talk stuff about boys and what's going on in our life.

She's the one I go to whenever I needed someone to talk. arghhh.. I hate missing her. AND AND AND.... She's leaving for UK soon, i think.

Harminderjit Kaur with her super short hair.. I miss ur long curly hair, babe! :(

Lol.... super old pic! It was taken in during Chemistry class! :)

yay me before braces! haha.... en en on the left and the babe on the right! :)

I'm so free to upload pics here today cuz i don't feel like doing anything now! so damn not in the mood of studying! arhh... I might gonna start late tonight! I'm going home this friday!! I'm too excited for this that's why I don't wanna touch any books now! haha... daddy's coming to get me! omg omg!! He's my super dad cum hero!! :) <3

H-U-R-T

2010-10-07T21:56:00.003+08:00

First of all, I must emphasis that this is not an emo post. LOL... I've been playing bass for quite some time and today is my first guitar lesson with Mr.Ong. It was last minute decision for having a guitar class.

Well, I was at the piano centre practicing piano, and my mind thought of asking the clerk whether they provide guitar lesson or not. The clerk brought me to see the teacher right away. lol.. I was shocked. macam tu la my first guitar lesson starts. haha... *short story ends fast, isn't?*

It was kinda fun learning under him. He's a good guitar teacher. :). blisters all over my first three fingers both right and left hand. :'(....

Though its pain, but for me, its worth it. :))

In the mean time, I've been hitting the books ever since.... err.. idk when!! haha.... been coping with everything well now. :)

@@

2010-10-02T20:43:00.002+08:00

Been facing the computer ever since I woke up this morning. I've cracked my head for the report for Mr Johan's work!

5 hours, I've counted!! gosh.... 5 hours, but i'm still stuck at baroque period. sigh.... cuz its really difficult to write in bahasa melayu!!

Books after books for refering and google after google, wiki after wiki!! arh..... Felt like banging my own head to the wall!!

I stopped writing after Baroque period, cuz i really cannot stand it anymore. so I went for a sleep. Gosh.. u know what?? CHILDREN nursery rhymes kept spinning in my head! cuz u know why?? I just had singing test two days ago. I kept singing those songs again and again until it actually "stick" in my mind. gosh... now its really difficult for me to "peel" it off!! *HELP*

I'm looking forward to teaching in kindergarten this coming Thursday. Its actually part of our course outline. :))... teaching kids how to sing with all the methods that I've learnt! COOL!! I really wonder how it'll be!

Currently waiting for the arrival of my new cello!! omg omg omg!! I'm so excited!! haha....

Piano class these days kinda stress me out. Cuz my teacher keep on stressed on my fingers. sigh... more and more practice is needed!! arhh...

meanwhile, my bass guitar training session is only limited to every Tuesday, wednesday(with prof) and Friday. sigh.... My fingers hurt everytime I play. :(

Till then, i've gotto continue my work again! Classical period!! gosh!!! I've gotto get it done by today!! I mean it!! today no matter what!!

focusing

2010-09-29T19:01:00.002+08:00

Lame title, huh? I'm out of idea of what title I should put. Just a little anecdote to share with you guys out there. :)

I'm currently playing bass guitar for my class's ensemble. Fingers hurt till max for my very first time plucking the strings on the bass. gosh... It hurts when I play piano for the first few days. But it gets better after some time. Now, My first two fingers are officially "harden"?? LOL... idk that's the appropriate word to describe it! haha... well, i'm getting use to playing bass right now. :)

Besides taking up bass, I'm gonna start learning CELLO soon!! yeah, you heard me saying CELLO! why cello?! first and the most important factor of learning a cello is because of the impact of watching "The Soloist". This movie makes me cry at the very end and it inspires me to get myself to learn cello!! I'm getting a cello at LAST!!! yay~~

Mua is coping with studies nowadays. I'm setting a goal for myself. lol... my goal = finish up all those books that i've photocopied!! omg!!! its like A THOUSAND pages long!! hopefully I can finish them up before final starts!! omg!!

Thinking back of biology and math. I miss doing them so much. I miss memorizing cells, describing the process of it and most of all do all difficult math questions. yeah, I know I may sound stupid cuz most of science students hate doing those stuff, but those WERE what I did for the past 7 years.

For now and the next 2 years, I'll be reading scores scores and more scores like EVERYDAY!! haha.. sight-reading sure improve till max la!! no more calculators, cuz there are NO calculations!! no more graph papers, cuz there are NO graphs for me to draw! no more tiny little cells for me to examine, no more microscope, no more brain-wrecking questions like those crazy MATH-T!!

I've told myself, no regrets after choosing this path. I'll do this properly and hopefully I can excel in what I've chosen. *pray pray pray*.

Thanks for those who were there beside me whenever I needed them. I really thank them for lending their hands, shoulders and their ears. You know who you are.

okay, I'm addicted to kit-kat nowadays!! I had a bar of kit-kat which cost me rm3 and kit-kat nuggets just now! omg!! those calories!! *pening straightaway*

Will be here to update my story next time. till then~

A rotten apple inside.

2010-09-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

Class started and assignments are piling up ever since the first day I got back. pheww... luckily I got to Finnish up the drama & theater report in time! Thank God!

Mr Johan, my music history teacher won't be giving lectures anymore. Instead, Dr Razak will be handling over his class. I love Mr Johan's class, cuz i'd learn alot of things from him other than learning history of music. And he's so C-U-T-E when he's lecturing in front of the class!!! *Faints*

Life had been kinda lazy for me ever since I got back here. I admit that I don't really practice piano now due to some personal reasons. sighh...

Nowadays, I'm scare to talk to anyone. I don't know why. I'm scare to approach to talk to my friends even though they're my classmates. I miss the laugh, the excitment, the joy and most of all, the sharings.

Books and I-touch becam my new best friend recently. I try my very best to show the best of myself infront of everybody where I smile and I laugh with them. But, in the inside, I'm truely sad/lonely/SAD. Yeah, I hate to admit that I'm all alone in uni. :(..

More or less, this feeling affected me myself. I've never been so ALONE in my whole entire life. In the past, where ever or whenever I go, Teng teng would be by my side. I felt like i'm a rotten apple. idk why.

I cried so badly for that particular incident where I am all alone. I cried cuz i'm so damn scare to be alone. I skipped lunch everyday cuz i don't know whom i can eat with!! My eyes hurt last few days as I've never been so down until I met this incident.

For you, if u're reading this. please do tell me why and what happened? Its been a month plus since I last talk with u. I tried to approach u, but it seems that u tried to avoid every step I take. And now, I'm scare to talk to u cuz I felt like i'm a pest to u. I am Scare of u.

I have to admit that I can't survive without friends.