Saturday, July 18, 2009

you...

you were my best friend since i knew you.
you were there when i was sad.

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We used to have lotsa talkings whenever we were together.
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But,
Everything seems to changed 360 degrees.
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I wouldn't dare go near you.
I wouldn't dare talk with you anymore.
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Cuz of the weird feelings inside my heart.
Cuz what happened last year.
Cuz don't know what makes us apart.
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seriously,
I can't forget of what had happened last year.
I felt so innocent.
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Now,
I felt like running away from you whenever i see you.
I felt like hiding myself from seeing you.
I don't know what should i do.
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Today,
We are far apart each other,
We can't be as close as we used to last time.
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The feelings are far way too weird for me!!

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Anyway,
I know that i can't turn back time to get back there.
I know that things won't be the same again even if i tried my best to fix them back.
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So,
We should live our life to the fullest!
Appreciate what we have now!
Never look back of our past!
But!!
Learn from our mistakes we've done before.


P.S : I do miss the time....
P..S.S : Waiting for bro to come back on thursday!!

Saturday, July 11, 2009

lately.

Lately, I've been studying so hard for chemistry, especially organic chemistry. But those mechanism just don't seems like going into my "memory stick". I ought to revise again and again and again for the same mechanism!!
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Alkenes, Benzenes, Methylbenzenes, Haloalkanes and Hydroxy compounds are seriously driving me crazy!!!

sigh.....

How am i gonna strive for at least 3.5cgpa??

Biology is at least better than chemistry. They at least "willing" to enter my "memory stick"!! But, population genetics and all those stuff about genes and DNA are making my head right round!! I had to do lotsa exercise on that chaps!!

I've been doing Math exercises too lately... differentiation and integration!! they're fun when i get those answers correct, but they're torturing me when i couldn't get the answer!! I'll just scribble the whole foolscape paper with numbers & symbols!! Oh GOD!! help me!!!

Trials is on the 4th of Sept!! i'm so gonna fight with it!!!

Friday, July 10, 2009

I had enough!!!!

sometimes life isn't as smooth as a boat saling on the sea. there were ups and downs whenever one wants to be success.
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I've seen and learnt so much from ppl's attitude.
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They backstabbed you when they hate you. They ignored you when they feel doing so.
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I'm sick of people backstabbing each other!
I'm tired of people talking bad about each other!
And
what i hate the most is someone who treated me like i'm nobody!
I felt like i'm used!!
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Hell yeah!! i'm talking about you!! cuz i really cannot stand the attitude u gave me!!
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For me,
Friends aren't for backstabbing, They're there for you to lean on and to share your thoughts and others.
Thanks to someone who made our relationship apart!
Thanks to him that i wouldn't dare to talk to you.
What i did was to help him.
But,
What i get at last??
She say i jaga tepi kain orang!! She say i couldn't even solve my prob then wanna kacau ppl's prob!
I really couldn't understand what issit about!!
What i want to do is help him through his relationship, and what he did to me at last??!!
Told her everything i said!!
please lar...
She's my best friend, and you just make our relationship apart.
I really had enough!
I will never care about you and your things.
I will only do my part.
I will never talk with you again!
never again......
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Thanks to you,
I cannot live my normal life again.
you keep coming into my mind refreshing that moment!
Thanks!!

Saturday, July 4, 2009

He's coming back!!

My Bro is coming back from japan this coming 23rd of July!! haha.... I was so happy when he phoned back during june saying that he's got into University of Tokyo!! wohoo~!!!


Miss him so much cuz he's been in japan since i was form5.


Miss him every bit from head to toe!!


Miss him calling me "A'Girl" at home!! cuz he's the only one who calls me like tat!! haha...



P/S: I'm sooo going to KLIA on the 23rd!! haha...

I'm tired...

He's a nice guy everyone says.
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He did breakfast for me every morning.
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He's there for me always.
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But today,
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I'm totally exhausted with everything.
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I got no more strength to ask him to do anything anymore.
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I cannot expect him to change anymore.
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I'm way too tired with everything right now.
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I wish i could just stop everything and restart.
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sometimes,
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I just cannot bear with the "unperfectness" in him.
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I just cannot stand to scold him so that he could change.
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But now,
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I'm too tired asking him to change.
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I really hate,
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Broken promises from him.
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now,
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I'll just let things pass n go away.
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I'll just put it as one of the best memories i had.
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The moment we were together,
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The moment where we don't argue,
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The moment when we share our foods together,
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The moment i had my first bite on ur fried rice,
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The moment we went into the cinema,
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The moment we sat beside the beach chilling together,
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I just miss all those moments.
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I really do miss them.